hearts delight

2006-10-27T14:36:00.000+08:00

I tried and i tried, but nothing came out

2006-10-22T14:26:00.000+08:00

Some random photos. This is so photo-bloggish. But... nevermind :) If you have noticed, i've made many new friends! Whoopeedoo. Pam's party was quite a success. I took a video of her playing with the pinata. Hilarious shit :)

IM IN LOVE WITH THE GIRL AT THE ROCKSHOW!

Que sara sara, whatever will be will be :)

2006-10-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

2006-10-13T20:55:00.000+08:00

This are my awesome friends. Pictures taken with my lousydousy cam on friday the 13th. OMG

I look like shites in all the pictures, but i love each and everyone of my friends. I'll wait for yvonne and rapc and nicole and cheryl and cindy and everyone else with fab cams to upload their pictures before ripping them here :) Im finally graduating and it's a very indescribable feeling. SPECIAL MENTIONS : Ling for her awesome photo album and Cindy for her tear-inducing clique video (: (: (:

Lj cant upload pictures. Believe me, i tried. So if you wanna find me, go http://candy-carousels.livejournal.com

2006-09-28T21:23:00.000+08:00

LADY IN ME!

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Im in a lousy moodymood):
My head is damn pain, i should start sleeping early
I hate head spins.

I just came back from some yummy chinese restaurant
Sambal kangkong and pork chops!
Mum's birthday! happy birthday mummy :)
I love you and i gave you cookies, must love me more
Ok, i made you pay for the cookies, but still
Teehee, My mum's kinda annoying and likes to do things that irk me
But she's still my mum and that's why i love her alot
So that pretty much sums up what i have to say
I'll try to be a better daughter and not shout at her so much

Today was really slack and a waste of time
i should have skipped school too.
House games was spent catching up with graceywacey osy and wani :) :)
Slept in class for an hour with isabel's trusty zen
She even has led zeppelin. I swear she's my music twin (nicole too!)
My new favourite led zeppelin song is a collaboration with pink floyd!
knocking on heavens door.
Ok, so we had chem prac all the way till 5ish.
It wasnt that helpful, on hindsight i should have skipped it to meet you
sorry love! Study hard for promos and i'll see you really soon(:
chia sort of dampened everyone's spirits, saying that only 60% of us passed chem
i wish the school would give our results back already
I hate waiting, under suspense
I really hope i do alright but anything above 14 points is well... pointless since sa and ac both require 9-10 points. This sucks, I wish i could migrate and be done with that.

I have alot to whine about. I dont understand why some people have to make trouble and enjoy ensuring their continuous spotlight and fame(?!) It's irksome and im tired of dealing with such people. I shall call sasa to tell her about the latest happenings later, maybe. If im not too tired.

Ladyinme day wasnt any big deal, but it's kinda poignant it's already over so fast
I really dont wanna graduate. I dont wanna go coed cos im scared of guys
they make no sense sometimes, sometimes.
But neither do girls, i should go to the zoo.
Animals seem like a better alternative to this.

Mahjong yesterday at nic's house(: I lost 1dollar+ but all in all we had fun. I really am going to miss my chicks. It's like, most of us have gone through 4 years together. Through thick and thin. Yadayada.

I've been reading alot of books
yakka lent me salem falls by jodi picoult. It's damn good
Almost as good as the tenth circle. We both had different views of the ending
She thinks that the father is innocent, i think he raped his daughter. And we finally decided i was right :P See, that's the making of a good book. Err, Runqi lent me the out book. It's good, but i keep mixing the japanese names up!

Toodles bellas. I shall go call [name] in a minute :)

2006-09-25T20:23:00.000+08:00

my class, rocking (horses)
pttp says im a lucky pig. AS IF ;)
WE LOVE LIT!(:

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Today was mentally draining
Felt so sapped that i cldnt concentrate during chinese
I hope it wont cost me, please let me pass
Please?

I need to pass higher chi to get my 2 bonus points you know.

Aiya, i dont know. Im ****strated

haha, lady in me tmr! Im gonna wear something save and predictable
it's a lot less hassle this way, and god knows how troubling life has been
Denise the pig better not laugh at me or i'll kill her cuteguy :D

town today with my chicks after chinese
Cindy liling cheryl pam and sam!(:
We were supposed to watch johntucker but ended up... walking

Sat outside wisma cabstand and talked to liling while the shopaholics went shopping
I swear i hate shopping now, at least with my crumpler
It's damn heavy, i wanna die.
Liling kept laughing at me, i wanna box her ah :@
Hehe

err, i guess you read my blog?
Thanks, for the letter, im sorry.

p.s Thanks OSY(: For you know, helping out (what a way to put it) I hope you'll come tmr cos i keep nagging you to do so, but i know you wont. TSK

p.p.s Amelia chan hurt herself AGAIN, i really wanna kill her. I think i will, soon. Haha, get well soon bitch. You know i love you (with all my heart and soul) omg, you better appreciate me ah.

p.p.p.s I love supergirl, more than ever :) :)

I really like stairway to heaven, LED ZEPPELIN LED ZEPPELIN!
SHE WAS MY QUEEN<3

2006-09-23T22:14:00.000+08:00

OSY'S DAMN FUNNY! :D
ok, i have to add this before i say anything else
Phone date was awesome(: I mean, of course the real one will be much better!
She insists we'll have to find a good deep movie to watch
We were supposed to hang up at 12 but talked for a good 30mins more :) :)

Ok, met bestfriend in town today
we ate at village! (the marche doppleganger)
Rosti and BIG FAT CHEESE SAUSAGES! Yum
We walked for a long time
before discovering g200 had sale!
Omg, so happy. 59bucks for two pants!
And i found another lovely steal. My esprit bikini for a mere 25bucks
and bestfriend chipped in because she's such a sweetheart X)
Met nic and we went for tuition.
Thanks love for asking your parents to give me a lift!
nicole is a brat, she bought so many things today
I told her im wearing the crescent yellow blouse for ladyinme
hehe, so funny X)

Good day :)

2006-09-22T18:54:00.000+08:00

I think there's something wrong with my blog, it archives by itself

And the really ugly: All four classes are social science classes: modernChinese history, game theory, international politics, and a sociology classon non-violent social movements.

Consensus: I'd kill for lab right now.

Jon kills me with his extremely profound english language sometimes
I just checked my gmail and im happydappy!
I shall mail andrea the king right now since I havent done so in eons
it's good to check up on old friends

Kap today after phypractical
Which was kinda fun cos it was just the 7 of us in the lab
we had the last shift and liztay kept grinning throughout the prac ok
she's a bit bonkers ;) Terrie and i sat together hoping we could cheat
and then we found out that we had to do different experiments >:(
Had lunch with cindytang, she's really funny.
I made her eat even though she already had lunch
hehe, thanks luh :)

Sam gets on my nerves sometimes, she bans me from talking about so many things. TSK, she's already banned me from talking about three things. When i wanna ban her from talking about her maid love she dont let me): She's a meanobeano. And she was going on and on and on about maidlove last night. Heheeee, later i spill the beans then she know ah!

I have a phone date with osy tonight!

Im vvivian, im friends with ssarahh :D

I miss stephanie wong shu en
coffee talks and shopping soon?

This all was only wishful thinking<3

2006-09-21T20:14:00.000+08:00

On and on, reckless abandon

I really like dark blue, I dont like copycats):

I havent been feeling well, insomnia etc.
Emaths sort of marked to end of prelims
I mean, i still have phy prac and HIGHER CHINESE (tsk) on mon
But they're secondary :)

went to the library today, i absolutely love reading
Im reading the scott westerfeld series. It's da bomb

Town's still perpetually boring even after months of absence
Or maybe because i didnt see anyone interesting
Save for deborah (no j) cindyc and junie (:
I saw so many frequent reminders, so many things that screamed you

I was fretting the whole afternoon whether i shld cut my hair
sam thinks i shld cut the punkish bung hairstyle
ling thinks i shld keep long hair

Im off to do stuffs, i started on something and i guess there's no turning back
It's funny how little things make me revert back to my old self
Im sorry for not answering calls, im too tired.

That's all i guess. I just found a new eyecandy
She's SO cute, i swear this time her looks are wayyyyy good(:
I hope she's cute inside too!

2006-09-20T21:56:00.000+08:00

Sarahh gave me her heart :)
Sarahh has my heart until i meet a hot chef X)
I've decided that im marrying a chef. Stef kept laughing at me
Hehe.

I decided that it's too tedious to change blogs
Ok, im so indecisive. I'll just stick to blogger, for the mean time
Until i get supergirl to make me an awesome xanga or something

You'll be alright right?

I hate it when things are this way

I shall go blog in diaryland
I need to clear my thoughts before exam tmr

2006-09-20T18:50:00.000+08:00

well, i've learnt the art of backing down
I guess im proud of myself
I dont know how to explain this, except it's a great achievement
Ok, no one will know what im talking about :)

On a lighter note, sarahh and i's quiet peaceful date became somewhat interesting
Yesterday was an interesting day :)
Denise came down to meet us, we tried studying. Hehh
We were joined by sarahh's church friends, denise made me buy her poiful
OMG, I MISS ROSE!):
ok, wy pizza weicheng weichang irfan and some other guy came down
and yeah, some silly stuffs happened AND they started teasing and bullying me again!
Well, yeah, and my gorgeous, UNFAT love was there.
I so love her ;) Sarahh refused to double date.

sarahh ; today so interesting. If only * came too. Then can watch good show
me ; yeah, you're part of it ok! Then we'll have both guys and girls drama

I so love sarahhoWANling. 6 x 10^23!
See sarahh, im sweeter than you! :P

Alright, im tired. My phone bill was a bomb and i had to part with a hefty 50
So yeah, i've been limiting myself from msging ok, i simply dont understand!
All my sms buddies (HAH!) should know that well
I take err... hours to reply.

I should sell my phone and spend my money on food
chunkymonkey is good for perking oneself up
I love love love :)

---wee viewed me ok!This causes for celebration :D

Ok, i've been sidetracking
What i've wanted to say is that exams are ending
Prelims that is, DO YOU KNOW THAT ALL THE REST WHO ARENT SEC4 START THEIR EXAMS ARND NOW): ): ): ): im so upset, i have to redo my booking list
I wont be able to see most people, except the lazy (concave) and sweet chan

Emaths is the last major paper.
Physics yesterday wasnt what i'd call good. Stupid welia, all her answers differ from mine):
At least usarin and i had the same, but wrong answers
HAHA. Chemprac was ok. Im so glad VA readings are correct
I really made sure i was superduper careful
but as always, QA was wrong. I cant do without my favourite lab partner (pammmm)
before that, liztay szeling terrie and i were freaking out

szeling ; If it's sulphur dioxide, then we must COUGH
szeling ; If it's oxygen we must go... OOOOHHHH

haha, and sulphur dioxide came outAND szeling did cough, but she claimed she really felt like coughing

-.-

coffeebean with liling and nic today(:
Shared blueberry cheesecake with nic!
I shall become a foodie, eating makes me happy

Im actually really forlorn
I dont know why, im not supposed to miss you

lastly, i've been listening to Led Zeppelin and I think he has soothing voice :)

2006-09-15T21:47:00.000+08:00

http://poptarts-.diaryland.com

Ok, fine. Since everyone's complaining that they dont wanna get a live journal for my sake, it'll be diaryland. Ask me for the password. I dont know how to do diaryland skins though, how annoying.

2006-09-13T13:13:00.000+08:00

Chem tomorrow, i think exams are mentally draining
I have to nap every now and then after each paper before i do anything
Ss was fine, although i took jan and sam's hint to study venice
WHICH DIDNT COME OUT AT ALL, but sustainable development came out(:
sarahh better thank me ah! :)
i hope i do well, i didnt have enough time but i got my basics covered

CHEMCHEMCHEM tomorrow. I think out of all the subjects i've studied chem the most, that and amaths. SO please please please let me do well. I know crescent sets stupidly tough papers but im not counting on my physics. So i neeeeeed chem.

Hi chem, be my friend.

my grandmother's in the hospital. Spent the whole afternoon there yesterday. I hope she gets well): ): ): but as sarahh says, fret not fret not!

tag replies!

NATANIA! Fine, stop asking me to shut up. You can send the sweet to me... er by mail! HAHAHA, that's quite funny. FEDEX!

ASHLEY! I never see you online. But i always appear offline :) Hehh, i say hi for sarahh. HI!(: yeah, im halfway through my exams. YAY

PAMM! Yes, i love yellow first, then dark blue. Your fan reads my blog

Pam's fan! Hi..... err, i dont know? Who are you! I'll tell you pam's dirty little secrets if you tell me who you are :P

STEF! What's funny? Ok, i reply longlonglong one now. You're so demanding please :) Hope your bio went ok! You bio freak. Im kinda glad i dont take bio but now you stupid pigs can play today cos you dont have chem tomorrow): No i havent been hardworking. Im online!

GHA! She went to paris. I think, further studies :) You lucky thing, youre not in crescent anymore = no prelims X)

nonameperson! Ok :) I guess err, i wont find out who you are? Haha, please tell me! I'll buy you a sweet! Are you from crescent?

AMES! Hello, why you call me a biatch. Later i dont love you then you cry. Haha, you have to love me ok. I dont care, you have to drive me around in your new sports car before you can stop loving me. Since you say i wont pass my driving test. Tsk. Stop ponning school and i'll love you abit more. Hi, this is a long reply. Thank me now!!!(:

and omg omg omg! I cant wait for stupid amelia's exams to be over! We're going to dine at billy bombers and she's going to talk to ** who works there and i can see **! YAY, i swear she's is the best girlfriend ever! Im going to make her treat me. X) OMGOMGOMG! **! Im so excited now. Haha and i cant study. Amelia wants me to tell her when i finish blogging. Im so excited still X) i hope ***** works at somewhere too (prefably marche) I love marche. Ok, i sound like a retard. Byebye.

2006-09-12T13:13:00.000+08:00

But you gave me the best mixtape I have.
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad.
I just wish there was so much more than that, about me and you

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I hope you understand. I really hope you do.
And i can only hope.

life's boring, at least i have daphne loves derby, rachael yamagata and jack's mannequin. Just like how nicole has jimmy eat world and sugarcult

see, life's so boring we resorted to talking about music

papers arent good. I cant say im confident.
Off to study ss

2006-09-10T18:45:00.000+08:00

I MISS HER):

ALL PHOTOS RIPPED FROM SAM!(:

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Im in love with dark blue :)
thanks concave jan! You're on my booking list ok, dont be sad!(:
send me mixed tape next! Thanks lah, we'll eat bakerzin!

Im so stressed right now
i think all sec4's are feeling the same way
but still, I did jlc today plus one emaths paper1
i havent touched eop yet, leaving it for tonight
Im really scared, i really am.
Everyone's been studying very hard):
I wish i could say the same for myself

IM. SO. STRESSED. I. NEED. TO. GET A1.

Anw, my mum's bitching about me to the tutor
im so annoyed :/

GRRRRR, IM BLOGGING TO VENT MY FRUSTRATION
and i have alot to spare): ): ): ): ):

Sarina called just now and we spent 1hour discussing lit stuffs
well, i spent a teenyweeny bit complaining to her
I LOVE YOU TUIDI(:

AND OMG, ***** GOT ALOT OF FANS!!!):
IM SO ANNOYED. SHE'S MINE MINE MINE!
ASHLEYYYY!!!! I need to talk to you. Haha

aiya, so many tags to reply

SUPERGIRL! OMG, stop it about yakult ;) You already told ** to drink already. Tsk, i drink vitasoy luh. Im so lonely): hehe. Dont forget that i know your secret! That you like.... YOU KNOW WHO!(: ok, this reply makes no sense to anyone except you. See, you're so special :P I LOVE YOU!

DENISE! HIHI! I swear i miss you and after prelims im booking you too :) I cant cook, it's called boiling water only

NATANIA! How'd i know, you lah. So annoying :) Anw, you still owe me my sweet thingy if you havent forgotten (which i bet you did and ate the whole sweet yourself) haha, stop getting sick!

STEFFITYSTEF! Yes dear, after exams we can... go shopping!(:

HAHAHA THIS IS PAM! You are weird. My name is VIVIAN. not VIVIVAN!(: It's ok, i forgive you. Wahlao, why your fan give you flowers): Must share with me! IM REALLY STRESSED TOO. grrrrrrrr

WENGYANG! HI POSER! Gosh, i havent called you that for a long time. HAHA, POSER STORAGE! Yesyes, i know you've been studying very hard. Im proud of you!(:

ANONNN! Hi, err. Ok, if you say so. That was so long ago anyway. Whywhywhy do you care so much! :/ :/ Im straight. she's straight. End of story.

SARAHH! I FEEL SO SILLY REPLYING YOU!(: but must keep (_) secret. Anw, yeah. Thanks, i love you!

IM SO STRESSED STILL!): listening to dark blue makes me 1% happier!

2006-09-08T12:39:00.000+08:00

wednesday - tbp with yakka szeling isabel and julianna
thursday - holland with stef, we ended up shopping :/

therefore, im staying home today.
I just cooked myself a hot piping bowl of.... instant noodles
HAHA, it's the ridiculously expensive japanese noodles i always ask my mum to get from isetan :) YAY, and my dad bought some organic root beer back. IM FEASTING!

anw, i've been sleeping really late. Msging friends and - and more friends (:
studying hasnt been good, but im hanging on (by a thread)
teehee, i study better at night. I think.

i've been munching on the mrsfields cherylteoh got :) :) :)

Im really shit over the head scared for prelims

i cant wait for everything to be over
i havent watched tv for eons cos i dont have cable
Sam says we'll rent the OC, desperate housewifes, lost ... etc and be couch potatoes!(:
And i shall borrow Lword from jx (GET WELL SOON GIRL!)
& i can finally meet up with all the people i've booked! :P
But first.... STUDY!!! Im always distracted by my phone
and when someone like super girl calls and fills me with all the dishy gossips
I'll spend hours on the phone. Heh

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& hello anonnnnnn and all you other kpos.
natania and i were never together, are not together and will never be
hope that quells are your curiosity (cos curiosity killed the cat)

2006-09-05T16:24:00.000+08:00

im feeling so poignant and nolstalgic now.
4 years really did fly past within a blink of an eye.

Dorcas ; wow, sec 4 already?
Me ; yeah. My prelims are next monday
Dorcas ; ok, study hard. How're your results?
Me ; okaaaaay.

Ok, it might not seem very thought provoking (the above conversation)
but it really feels as though im still sec2 and she's still sec4
There were many ex crescentians at kap today.
And i feel so old now, like gosh. Im sec4, im actually going to graduate and go to a jc
and then it hits me that i havent been studying and i go, oh man. I might not even go to a jc

Yeah, something like that.

and seeing dorcas just reminds me of the sec2 childish times and how yvonne was soooo spastic :) OH, i just realised pam's yvonne's and mine were all at kap today. HAHA, i miss being a junior. Juniors all think seniors are cool but i still feel like a junior. I think i get older but im still stuck with the kiddy mentality. i think about ****** and how she's doing fine now and how sometimes when i see her i want to go up to her and give her a big hug. But we're past that stage already. I miss her, all of a sudden. I dont even know her anymore, i just hear about all her scandals and like, think about how fun she was to be with. How i thought she was the coolest friend ever and how she seemed so at ease with herself. Then i think about sec3 and how you know, everything seemed to fall into place but in actual fact i was just unravelling, falling. I think about how i felt like a queen, oh the exuberance.

And that's why we cant be friends.

Never underestimate the power of nolstalgia.

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Im off to meet sam for swensons dinner, or is it sakae.
Then we're gonna meet the rest at the airport

me ; If i faint you have to catch me before i fall
amelia ; Cannot, my phone is in my hands
me ; Can! Im more important than your phone!

amelia chan is a lousy girlfriend. Ok, but she bought me sweets to make up for it. HAHA, im glad i met you today too(:

Sam got me the gummytree sweet too! I was quite shocked she's so nice all of a sudden :P
Thanks love, i get so excited peeling the fruits from the wrapper!
deborah's in love with it too. Just like how she's in love with my C******!
:)

2006-09-04T19:25:00.000+08:00

guess who guess who! The skinny one! :P

DENISE BABY!
sarimah is hot stuffffffff
i gave denise my abercrombie shirt :)
wo ai yan jun

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pictures overload!

woke up at 945 to deb's msg :)
went down to kap to meet her for breakfast
I love you deborah chin! Even if you scared the shit outta me with your jc talk
And yes, rgs is my first choice! ;)

headed down to holland. Lunch at breko with dear nic
Then we had coffeebean studying sessions. Amathsamathsamaths!!
Starbucks is under renovation, stupid place.
LING! YOUR HONEYDEW DRINK IS GONE): ): ):

ok, headed to schoooool for history lecture
left with stef and we wanted to go waffletown
ended up going to... btp for kfc :)
Stef is my chill buddy, i can sit with her for hours just hanging out.

busy day. I love my friends.
sarahh just called and each time she calls i lose a few kg from laughing
she's so funnily funny :D
WE MUST GO FOR OVERDRIVE! I love wade robson!

& i have this gorgeous french neighbour.... AND HE SAID BONJOUR TO ME JUST NOW!!!!
I swear he has sexayyyee voice. Yay

Goodbye sunshine baby.

Rest in peace Steve Irwin):
I liked watching your shows, they were really witty.
He just like... passed away. I used to idolise him so much):

Ms elaine chua is leaving tmr night
We're all gonna send her off

i guess it's time to get used to goodbyes

p.s I PASSED MY PIANO GRADE 8!!!!!!!!
Im happygirl and i love my supergirl
i shant tell you who supergirl is :)

2006-09-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

ok, a few last ones.
goodnight, love.

WE ARE THE TERIYAKI GIRLS :P
sam can go be her soft shell crab girl herself

2006-09-03T14:05:00.000+08:00

pretty shybo! I met her at the lobbyyy, i wish you came :(
jac!
WHAT STARTS WITH A AND ENDS WITH N? ;)

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thank you denise, for helping me do my makeup yesterday
i had fun, you're awesome dearest.
We had pizzahut, hunted for eyeshadows, then she came over to my house
met nic and sam, did hair.
They kept saying i looked like po >:( I dont!
gala was fine, i was kinda stoned (when am i not)
Im tired, nobody said it'd be easy.
The pictures arent loading (sorry terrie!)
I'll upload them another time, maybe later

thank you for feeling you.

ASH! OMG, talk to me soon. I presume the exclusive picture you have contains someone cute :D
RIZZA! It's alright :)

2006-09-01T17:48:00.000+08:00

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know youre not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

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This is my favoutie hsm song. Sam and i chose the song for our mass dance! :D
and julianna kept saying it was a lian song. HAHA
I guess, this (points above) pretty much says it all

Studying has been so unproductive i could cry
it's like i cant seem to see that prelims are in a week
my mind's all messed up and it's definitely gonna cost me

on a lighter note, hi sarahh hi stef.
thank you sweethearts for being sweethearts
ok, mind's blank. I cant think of good vocab
talked to sarahh for almost 2hrs before sleeping
sarahh has tons of gossipxxxx man, that heartbreaker ;)
stef, i'll call you tonight ok :)

yvonne is the bestest, thank you.
i know we've drifted. Yeah, you know that too
when you told me you ******* *** for me
i was really touch :)
I know like almost none of my friends would have done that
except you.
i'll write you a damn long letter for graduation
that's the least you deserve, bestfriend(:

if you knew what was going to happen
why didnt you stop it in the first place?

2006-08-31T22:24:00.000+08:00

i look disgusting ): WE ARE BASKETBALLERS :D
im sorry joyce dear that i couldnt spend time with you and walkwalk ): im sorry for rushing off so quickly, but im booking you after my prelims ok! :D much love (even if i highly doubt you'll see this)

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well, our skit and dance turned out to be great :) :) :) i have wonderful classmates that's why. HAHA, dumdum pts's bell couldnt ring but that was a minor thing. What matters was that people actually LAUGHED. ashibah the theif (testtube!!) is freaking funny(: i really am gonna miss the class. They're a fun bunch.

more than three bad things happened to me today, but i shant publicise them :) im low profile after all. Im just, disappointed. So fucking disappointed.

RAPC AFTER!!!(: omg, i think we were like the few sec4s whom went out to play. The rest went home to study. Watched lovewrecked!!!(: It's such a nice show, albeit corny/fairytale-ly. I mean, honestly since when will i look as hot as amanda bynes and have an equally hot bestboyfriend who adores me like mad. It's just so far-fetched. Bought my gold butterfly clutch and metallic silver pumps! Thank you loves for being so patient and understanding.

sarina chng, stef kell and i played basketball in the freaking rain for you. Feel honoured :D I ABSOLUTELY HATE SWEATING OR GETTING WET! hee

Darling(not) amelia chan messed my hair today >:(

MET DEBORAH AND ROSEMARY!!!!! :D :D :D
dee was with ahemahem. TEEHEE, momentary bliss man.
Ok, i agree he's gotten quite ugly. HAHA, but nevermind. Im not superficial :)

i miss so many people<3

2006-08-30T18:33:00.000+08:00

Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just, take your love and hit the road
Cause nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

im so tired. English paper today, i dont know how it was actually
i was so tired i fell asleep in the middle of the paper and mrlim woke me up
hehh, i didnt have time to check my compo though >:(
i ALWAYS have careless mistakes, lets hope this time i dont.
there's always a first for everything :)

i shall get cookiepops for liztang (HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!) soon

and my eyes have been really itchy and painful this few days
that's why im a bespectacled intellectual
HAHA, intellectual reminds me of OSY(:
we used to say we were intellectuals in sec 2 and she'd NEVER EVER say im intellectual

had a good talk with stef on monday at bk
i've come to realise a few stuffs.
And i think i know what she's trying to say now. I think.
Lets hope i do.

sarahh and i have made a bet
if i dont get below 10points for prelims im treating her to a restaurant
yes sarahh, by hook or by crook i'll be treating you
i must get my 10points (and below)

today's the last official day of school
it's also elaine chua's last day and i really like her as a teacher :(

im :(

2006-08-26T20:44:00.000+08:00

im bitching abt people to sarahh. HAHA

Leave me roses by the stairs? says:
GROSS PLEASE
Leave me roses by the stairs? says:
I WANT REFUND
Sinking into sweet uncertainty says:
HAHAHA, cannot lah
Sinking into sweet uncertainty says:
she's da bomb
Sinking into sweet uncertainty says:
:D

Leave me roses by the stairs? says:
you know, just want you to know by BSB screams vivi's situiation
Leave me roses by the stairs? says:
go listen

sarahh's kinda silly and sheeshy but i love her very much(:
i love S***** more though. HAHAHA, sarahh and i double date :P

you know im such a fool for you

i know i've been neglecting so many people.
girlfriend doesnt wanna reply me >:(
sorry chanchan, i'll go down to your rugby matches soon :)

sam and i have to go shopping soon. Gala in a week!

im downloading notes on uncle mao. I finally logged onto mlg for the first time ever! Cos dumdum sarina made me help me check stuffs. I love uncle mao! And hitler and stalin and gorbachev. Although i gave up writing on them cos there's simply TOO MUCH to write. I wish i had a photographic memory (WEICHENG!)

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replies

shybo ; i activated it already. Thanks love, but guess what. I have no idea how to use it. HAHA, help me make my temp please? :)
nonameperson ; haha, who are you! do i know you? Please tell me, i cant live in suspense):

2006-08-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

School's been terrible. Im so tired that i cant be bothered about my appearances anymore. I have red eyes, i wear my specs and it takes an incredible amount of effort to stay awake during lessons. I have alicia and jac to wake me up :P I dont know what to say, but i really hope i do well. Ok, i need to do well. Or i really will join jan and jump down uob building. We have to eat at B******* first ;) I have to stay back till 6ish nowadays, it's tiring. Gosh, the last time i stayed back was during sec2. THOSE WERE THE DAYS(:

im listening to drops of jupiter. It's such a nice song.

Im changing blog btw. Shybo the bimbo is helping me make a lj
YAY, thanks pretty, your admirer is cuter. I insist :)

I know i havent been a joy to be around. I get angry with myself too, for having weird moods. So thanks to all you pretty ladies (and boys) for being such sweethearts. You know who you are ;) I know im not studying the way i wanna study, amaths mock was a disaster today and i thought i'd grasped it pretty well. My mind wasnt on it but there's no excuse. Ok, my post is damn boring huh, STUDY AND MORE!(:

me ; te queiro
yakka ; aishi tero
me ; jetaime
yakka ; i love you
me ; wo ai ni

:)

p.s liztay nic and i are going belt shopping after prelims. WHOOPEEDOO!(:
i cant wait, i think liz is really nice to be with. HAHA although we scold each other half the time.

I'll probably still blog here though, but im busy beeeeee.

i love 4g2(:

2006-08-20T10:49:00.000+08:00

indefinite goodbye

que sara sara what's meant to be will be

2006-08-19T14:43:00.000+08:00

Mandarin toilet!
I find this amusing :P
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I hate you with all my heart and soul
I hate myself more though

What a nice thought.

EDIITTT!

tuition today was fun!(:
(except abt the bitch being a bitch to pam dear)
Sarah and Peiling's birthday!
We had nydc chocolate cake and cheesecakes
:D :D :D

the girls all had second helpings. YUM :)
nicole made me eat another slice, she wants me to grow fat lah
but i still love her!! WHOOPEEE

janessa yeong your gbk is screwed
Yes, you understand me too
that's why we can msg for months ;)

amelia chan better rest her BACK and KNEE
which idiot hurts her back and knee lah
only her >:( and she's going for netball tourny somemore
She's a maniac, and i miss her alot :)

dont be troubled all my troubled friends!

2006-08-18T18:23:00.000+08:00

i look ridiculously happy.
oxymoron!
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Im depressed, everything's going f wrong
i cant take this anymore i think i need more sleeping pills
(and cough syrup)

and you two are just pissing me off even more
if you wanna leave, by all means
stop coming back whenever you feel like it because i wont always be waiting for you

i wish i could take english orals again
i feel like killing myself for messing up so bad
and im banking on my english to get a 1
look what i've done now, im a total screwup
i guess i need to get a 26/30 for compo again
which really depends on my mood on that day
as long as im in the writing mood, i'll do extremely well
if not.......

thanks to all those who wished me good luck
STEF reginald janessa wy rizza weicheng
i didnt expect anyone to wish me at all :)
kapped with sam pam and stef, binged like mad to cheer myself up.

I need to wake up wake up!
but it's hard, i cant get away.
Im forever depressed.

(edit)
Terence bought me kinder surprise and it was a .... surprise :)
And i ate two chocolate eggs and i feel 1kg heavier
but all in all, it was a pleasant one.

nicole ; yumyumyum i've got food in my tum(my)
vivian ; dumdumdum vivian thinks you are dumb

TEEHEE, that's what boring history classes to do to you and i.

sam and i went to bugis last night and we shopped till we dropped
got my dress and butterfly earrings :)
but you know, the dress isnt very nice but whatever
impulsive buys!
Ate ritz apple strudel!!! YUM!(:
it's so delish. Rizza irfan and athiyahTALL came down to meet us for awhile
it's been such a long time since i saw them. And we (rizza's friends) got that idiot a 3g phone for his birthday. It's gorgeous, i want one too! Lucky pizza :)
my dad allowed me to go out at night since my mum isnt around :D :D

met joanna!!! She's leaving on saturday.
Oh shit, it's tmr. I shall msg her later
gosh, all my friends are really going away some place or another
melbourne for J's case
canada for trudy and jo and amanda
:(
Goodbye jo and manda, it's been a great 16 years with you two
i think it's still so cool you are twins and not identical ;)
love you two tweebs.

im lonely. HAHA

2006-08-16T19:52:00.000+08:00

spent the morning listening to isabel's zen and i finally found the song i've been looking for
sweetness - jimmy eat world :D :D
ok, im dumbdumb. So im online downloading it
YAY, no, no other reasons ok. Really.

Met elisabeth today after 34989482394787 years!!
We walked home together and gossiped about err... secret! :D
her stc shirt was stained with lemon juice!!! Damn funny
and she couldnt recognise me at first cos i cut my hair
i hate my hair, i shall wear a wig

I'm still running away
I won't play your hide and seek game
I was spinning free with a little sweet and simple numbing me
What a dizzy dance

:)

2006-08-15T22:09:00.000+08:00

omg, i finally got through to my mum and sister
haha, my dad and i've been frantically calling for hours
and i tried conversing in chinese with the china hotel operator and i think he thinks im a failure
i wanted to tell him to leave a msg and i was like 'qing ni bang wo liu XING'
and he replied 'liu YAN?'
me 'ah, shi shi. Xie xie'

HAHA, i dont know how i got distinction for chinese oral X)
but im glad they're safe and sound
MY SISTER WON 5 GOLD MEDALS!!! ROCKING :)
she's going to become an olympic iceskater and i'll happily live off her :D :D

anw, i've been trying to mug but i dont think it was that productive tonight >:(
im depressed, i havent started on humanities.... need to do notes!
and eng is in 12 days!!! How the hell did a month pass so fast):
im aiming for 10points and below. Please please please please (extra please) let me get what i want. You know, since i cant ace in any area except my studies so might as well go for it. Ok, i have to do well for eng oral first. Slept during chem today. I really tried staying awake, like using my fingers to widen my eyes but i finally couldnt take it anymore. Chia must hate me even more than she already does):

i love evan and JARON!(:
jaron is such a cool name, i shall name my son that
(rhymes with -----!)

Andrea the king is going to give me a tour of ngeeannpoly! :)
andrea the king likes to buy me cute sweets like the hello kitty ones ::)

ok, i need to do chinese compo
laoshi hates me already

p.s holland v nasi lemak is damn nice :D :D
p.p.s i love villars dark chocolate!
p.p.p.s my future husband will have to cook for me or croon like michael buble. Ok, but singing wont help me survive so i'll choose cooking. At least it's more practical.

You dont know how lovely you are

2006-08-13T13:02:00.000+08:00

you know how everyone says the fireworks are brilliant, beautiful (and all other b words)
well, after telling all of them yesterday that fireworks are for lovers
i've decided that im sick of telling them that and i shall deem fireworks to be overrated and a lame substitution for love.

Ok, im being cranky and irritated as i always am, soon no one will love me):

im dead tired, waking up at 8 to rush to clementi is no joke and then i had to rush back for tennis and then terence came at 2. Marinia with daddy! :) I got a zara halter at the sale, it was like the only small size thing i spotted and i got it for 16bucks. What a great investment. Daddy insisted we ate at imperial treasure (crystal jade's twin) i miss hongkong food, must go back soon! But i dont think it'll be THAT soon): my sister is going disneyland on thurs. That annoying, lucky pig. I wish i was my sister):

coughed so badly last night that i had to stay awake for the most of it
So i went to complete my chinese summary :)
i dont know whether i should see a doctor
i need a clear throat for eng oral on firday but if i go see the doc tmr, it'll be at night when i have to mug for amaths mock on tuesday.

i have to get my dress pronto! Night shopping dearest friends? :)

WANI BUNNY LUSTER MADE MY DAY!!! Thank you for your msg today, it was a pleasant surprise, talking to someone dear to me. We should go out and be silly one day :) one fine day. OH! and lets take pictures another fine day since the only picture i have of you is one which i look like a primary school kiddo X) I love you sec 2 girlfriend!! HAHA, i miss you so so so much, more than you'd ever know(:

CANDICE LEE! Mommy we've made a pact to play after my o's. I simply CANT WAIT! :D You know you're one of the bestest thing that has happened to me in crescent and i love you :) AWW, i hope chaplin doesnt read this. HAHA he'll think im in love with you (i am actually) teehee<3

SOON LING! Haha, i love you girl, thanks for the dedication on your blog. I really really love you, but i know you love that cheekymonkey more >:( dont worry, i love you love you forever and today!(: Threesome's been awesome(:

Proper dedication another day, i swear i dont wanna leave crescent. I love my lovelies so much, more than the THING siewling thinks my life revolves around. Teehee. But if you dont know it already, rapC and bitchclique and classclique are everything, anything to me :)

when all i know are your lies and all i know is that it'd hard to be without you

2006-08-12T22:28:00.000+08:00

nicole's my idol, always mine<3

my class is the coolest class ever.
We got first for mass dance :D :D
try to spot sam terrie and i! And pam tan who had to dance alone. AWW :)

i'll stop the world and melt with you :)

im proud to announce i've completed my bukit panjang amaths paper 1 and 2 and i've done my nanyang hcl paper except summary
:D :D :D :D :D
say yay! yay.

i study much better when im alone at home. I admit, so there you go, a productive day :)
oh, nicole and i are going for extra tuition tmr morning (yes, im waking up!) cos we have to brush up on our amaths.

i've been suffering from low self esteem, i need to feel better about myself and you're not helping. Not having my mum around means no homefood so i've been eating oily unhealthy food this few days): i've been feeling fat. Fat feeling is no no):

p.s vanessa got FIRST for team productions. YAY SISTER :D

2006-08-11T22:55:00.000+08:00

tag replies!

jan ; LOVE! JAN PRO CHEF'S COOKING FOR ME! :D

ames ; it's kuai not quai you stupidcupid :D ok, watch fireworks without me, you good. You better not forget your (lovely) girlfriend when you're smittened and all loved up ah! MISS YOU PLEASE, i saw your cutesy friend! YAYNESS

PAM ; HAHAHA, cheer up love. You are crude please, just look at your language and blog post. shakes hair- i shall LEND you my zen whenever you want lah ok, you can listen to your backstreet boys songs, which you find EMO. TEEHEE, smile!

Rachiiepokk ; YES, im the dancing queen :) i am NOT silly, i'll dance more for you ok! TEEHEE<3

wheeeeee ; who are you? :/ thanks though

gha ; I MISS YOU SO MUCH! please pop by soon :) and i miss our sec1/2 days SO MUCH!): yes, i tagged your board about it. Teehee, take care cute friend!

Candice ; WHO'S THE IDIOTS! >:( unfeeling things. Wait, is it daddy? HAHA, he didnt buy my hollister clothes, im still angry. TEEHEE, KIDDING!(: CARLS SOON PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. i miss you like crazy

stef ; yeah lah. stef the best lah. HAHA, I CANT BELIEVE IM ENCOURAGING YOU ;)

sarina ; YOU IDIOT, it's leung not KEONG. OMG, you sarina hing ah! HAHAHA, we must share the joy what, spread the love. Or rather, SPREAD OUR LOVES!(:

2006-08-11T22:21:00.000+08:00

im listening to michael buble now
omg, i still think he's the most suave crooner ever :D
I LOVEE MICHAEL BUBLE!

kapped after school, yes we kap everyday. HAHA

sarina is the dumdumdumest dum thing on earth!
we can go on and on about our loves!

sealed heart and soul says:
AT LEAST I DUN LOVE MY LOVE THAT MUCH
sealed heart and soul says:
HAHA
And I can never escape when my heart it explodes says:
your love sucks lah
And I can never escape when my heart it explodes says:
incorrigible liar
And I can never escape when my heart it explodes says:
):
sealed heart and soul says:
YEAH I KNOW
sealed heart and soul says:
I GIVE UP ALR HAHA
And I can never escape when my heart it explodes says:
hen hao
And I can never escape when my heart it explodes says:
HAHAHA
sealed heart and soul says:
HAHA SO U SHOULD ALSO
sealed heart and soul says:
UNDERSTAND?
And I can never escape when my heart it explodes says:
yes luh
sealed heart and soul says:
guai
sealed heart and soul says:
hahah
And I can never escape when my heart it explodes says:
you think im your pet ah
And I can never escape when my heart it explodes says:
haha
sealed heart and soul says:
YESH I THOUGHT U KNOW THAT LONG AGO?
And I can never escape when my heart it explodes says:
go and die, i go complain to your/my love ah!
sealed heart and soul says:
go lah i got NO MORE LOVE ALR LAH
sealed heart and soul says:
cant u see my nick

te quiero (:

***** came to kap today! OMG, ultimate ecstasy :D
she's so cute, shut up stef! You're just jealous ok. Teeheeeee
and my rugby boy was there as well, what a loved up day ;)
i was kinda sad in school but once i received ling's msg, i flew down to kap
or rather, we tried flying as quick as possible as we could.
sam saw her ******* who used to be mine dammit
she's always stealing other people's loves! Like nicole's ** and my *******
but it's ok, im a generous person, i just wanna see ***** EVERYDAY
please please please? :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RIZZAPIZZADOL!
wahlao, just because i take 2hours to reply your msg you dont wanna reply me right!):
teehee, i love you loads and loads and loads!
We'll all go out and celebrate when all the shit ends (eg. horrid o's)
Plus MY BIRTHDAY and sam's and pam's! :) oh, and all the rest of our funky friends!

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a leopard doesnt change its spots
does it?

after all this while, you're still lying, lying lying
and we're just pretending pretending pretending

pulchritudinous resplendent exquisite

2006-08-10T19:20:00.000+08:00

emptying the bin ; the rapc way!
HAHA, im always ripping pictures off ling cos she owns a brilliant cam! :D
lovelove, forever and today.
p.s upload the cow one! it's hilarious ;)

will asked me to watch fireworks with him tomorrow or on sat
BUT..... i cant):
read someone's blog and she said fireworks are for happily-in-love couples
will says we can pretend to be a couple. HAHAHA

out the whole day and im really exhausted, like seriously
mental fatigue mixed with an overdose of cough syrup
i saw the most perfect dress today
it's sexy, short, pokkadots, retro, quirky
but it didnt come in my size!!! i was so devastated
there's this black swirly dress at miss selfridge but it's quite plain and 109bucks
i dont feel like spending so much money on something i probably wont wear again):
& my two mad/childish friends refused to eat at carls jr with me so i had to eat yoshi
chem prac was stupid, pam and i got the va readings wrong so we just faked our way through
we got our target sheets and i put a1 for chem
chia stared at it for quite some time before asking if i was putting enough effort
and i contemplated awhile before saying no (HAHA)
she says it's good that im honest with myself
and then continued with the usual you're smart you're lazy talk
yadayada, i still cant get into the exam urgency mood :/ :/
i feel like wasting away everyday, like going out and doing nothing and getting high over momentary pleasures. Everyone's studying real hard! I dont know what's wrong with me.

i know you beneath the facade
i know i cant trust you now
i know some day i'll forget you

Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every morning and butterfly kisses at night

it's like you've been waiting for eons, hoping to unveil the door to the candy store
and when you finally get in, you realise it was empty from the start

ok, it's a dumb analogy but you get my point.

2006-08-09T20:51:00.000+08:00

Mommy and sister are going overseas tomorrow
vanessa has skate asia in china for two weeks :DD im very proud of her :)
i hope she wins tons of medals and whatnots
she'll appear on some china channel, i think. cctv or something like that :)
i'll miss them! Well, my dad and i will have to do chores ourselves (OMG)
and we're both lazy so i bet the house will be a mess in no time
and my mum will come home fuming and furious
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holidays are for resting at home. Therefore i have been resting my body and soul and watch chick flicks and gore-ridden shows for hours
Im excused :D

Too far gone. Running after cloudy dust.

i find it hard to trust nowadays
and only cause i know if i do, i'll end up hurt all over again
Same old, same old.

i tend to talk gibberish and sprout nonsense whenever im in an awkward situation
oh, and treat things in a retrospective way.
That way, i wont have to dredge up my own feelings

monotonous recount or speeding bullet train?
panic attacks for everything i cant do
and for everything i can do, i write.

chem prac exam tomorrow ):

I'll never get over you getting over me
or rather, me getting over you.

2006-08-08T20:03:00.000+08:00

'will you still love me in the morning?'
'forever and ever babe'

i think it's the sweetest, almost as sweet as folding a thousand paper cranes :)
if someone does either one for me i'll marry the person straight away!
Oh wait, the person must be special in the first place :D

im tired ever since morning. It's a daily thing but i was even more so today
natday celebrations, i love my coolpals :)
we're cooler than black!
RAPC OUTING!<3 x infinity ; that's how much i love each and everyone of us
we were extremely retarded and made total fools out of ourselves, but funfununderthesun!
we ate ljs outside cine (we're kewwwwll) and cried buckets watching click
stef lah, cry so much her eyes so watery. HEEEEE
i love my girls, 1-2 months left and i dont know how im going to survive without them
but i shall talk about leaving another time, lest i get over emotional.
Natania bought me summerberries bliss! THANKS!
I know i forgot to thank you properly, hehh.
we should order fondue another time :)
and i went all the way down to raffles city for her, what a nice friend (me!)

OK, BYE.

p.s tag replies for once since there seems to be a commotion going on.

- ; thanks so much sweetie, who are you?

ling ; i love you more than a mole :D i love you like a badger!(: Please dont think so much about the cheeky monkey cause i know you know i know it doesnt help worrying your head off about something :) We're in the same boat):

jan ; darling, we've been together for 3 months!! (HAHA) im very proud of you! i just received your msg. teehee, we should meet up... soon :) I love jan!

denise ; yeah finefine. X) Hello, i think you have alot to update me right, talk soon!

anon ; aiya, whatever you please lah

natania ; asshole it's all your fault that my love life is under scrutiny now. Olevels isnt juvenile you idiot, you think you jc very big ah :D thanks anyway, i'll buy you the 19.90 esprit shirt if you wear it :) please bring my mickey sweet the next time we meet.

grace ; i really think i screwed it up. I made tons of silly mistakes! See you around more! pretty ;)

PAMM ; thanks alot sweetheart, you are my crude but lovely friend :)

anonymous ; you must be either bored or simply ignorant/dumb/naive

sarina ; call you later dumdum, you still havent told me whatever you wanted to tell me today! Stop keeping me in suspense :) take care, i know you are a loser but definitely not a lo---. teehee<3

J ; i hope with all my heart you're doing fine wherever you are :)

ames ; WO HEN XIANG NI):

stones taught me to fly
love taught me to lie
life taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball

2006-08-06T21:04:00.000+08:00

all the fun we had yesterday, lovelies and i

pictures taken from siewling's blog :D

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i finally switched my profile back to not anonymous :)

i've done work today, thank goodness. I was beginning to fret at how everyone's studying except me. I tried telling myself the whole world goes home to play xbox and watch tv last week but apparently it's time to face up to reality. There's physics and emaths test tmr, i desperately need to brush up on physics, no joke): Didnt get anything yesterday (well i bought a forever21 belt on impulse but that's not counted) Haha, i didnt want a danielyam cos im certain everyone will turn up wearing the exact same thing and it's not like i want to stand out from the crowd but i want a quirky dress :D Saw siaosiao today before tennis and i was so excited, he's so cute even sam grudgingly agreed ;) AND I DONT HAVE VIOLENT TENDENCIES, dumb sam >:(

i think there must be a sec3 unwritten code to enjoy bitching about others in their blogs. Ling isnt a whore thank you very much, she's our cutesy pretty skinny ******-obsessed girl :) i love ling very much. YAY(: I think it's such cowardice to bitch about people in your blogs, please, say it face to face if you dare. If you dare that is :)

AMELIA! JOYCE! CANDICE! dates soon(:

Let's go back to the start?

2006-08-05T12:08:00.000+08:00

im listening to 100years
it always reminds me of well, nolstagic people.

OMG, i have 15mins to go change into something presentable
meeting ling pam and sam at 1230 :)

i swear i'll study tmr, i have to remind myself constantly i have a goal(NJC!) and i have to work towards it. haha

i love you(:

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J's leaving tmr
im really going to miss her. god, so much.
It'll be a year before i'll see her again
she bought me sunflowers last night! I LOVE SUNFLOWERS(:
and she's the one who calls youtube utube
and spells nickels as nickles. TEEHEE
she's so cute, i dont know what im going to do without her
but she promised to keep in contact, she better :D
i love you childhood friend
one of the few i actually talk to ;)

2006-08-04T22:12:00.000+08:00

SARINA CHNG!(:
please dont give up, you know, tell yourself everything you've been telling me
that you'll be strong like i am (haha)
hang in there, i love you loads and loads!
I'm here for you to rant to, err, even if my ear sorta hurt after listening to you for an hour
HAHA, but you know i'll always be here for you :)

see, im dedicating a post to you, please stop being sad cos i'll be sad too
): ): ): ): ):

must :)
xxx
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recap of this week : went sightseeing at geyland with karen cheryl and sam! Teehee, it's so happening man, we shall shun town and find new hangouts! Ok fine, we went there to do class shirt, it's the same factory as NUM!(: cool shit, it was fun nonetheless! KAPKAPKAP! HOLLANDHOLLANDHOLLAND! HOMEHOMEHOME! ok, i've summarised my week.

gala shopping tomorrow? (: i dont know what to wear still, i want a vintage dress but sam says it wont suit me. Stef and sarahh says i have the pokkadot-minidress kinda look -.-

I DID MY EMATHS WEEKEND ASSIGNMENT!
38 days to prelims! OMG): i never thought it'd come to a day when i would be able to say it. HA. Im so freaking scared! More so after my nightmare i got 18 points for prelims. I wanna go njc now! I heard it has the best arts programmes around :) i wanna be a humanities scholar and throw stupid physics and chem aside. Ok, but that depends on whether i can or not):

i screwed piano up by the way. I dont wanna talk about it, it's depressing

& you're so last summer

2006-08-03T21:46:00.000+08:00

i guess you say the same words to all the girls

starbucks studying with stef was productive today
:)

2006-07-31T20:25:00.000+08:00

i learnt a new word today
empyrean :)
i think it's beautiful, very.

came home straight after school today
but dont worry, i had piano piano and piano so i didnt do work at all
chem and emaths test tmr, i wish i'd faint soon and end up in the hospital
i've never fainted before, i wanna see how it feels like
but then again, no one would care even if i ended up in the hospital):

at least for an hour, i've officially shunned my phone
i have like 10 msges to reply but im super duper.... off

and i've been gorging myself with food
today's the second day i finished my cookiedough bjs
YUM(: i eat so much nowadays
spent the whole of tuition eating famous amos (thanks nicoleee!)
miss lee was so shocked, really
she said she thought i look like those people who never ever eat
and nicole replied that we eat alot but never get fat
HAHAHA, hello, that applies for her only
i love you nicoleee(:

someone get me a cookiepop please!
please and thankyou :)
i havent had one in ages simply because no one bothers to get me one anymore
see, life is saddening
but i just read sam's blog and it's quite funny

OK BYE STUDY. STUDY. STUDY

you contradict the fact you still want me around
& it's all downhill from here

i hope you read every word in that song.

2006-07-30T21:24:00.000+08:00

i love random pleasant surprises :)
especially from long lost friends
-

-ames` ; when i chose to give up. says:
i miss you too!
-ames` ; when i chose to give up. says:
please meet me soon!
-ames` ; when i chose to give up. says:
maybe tues? (:
Nickles and Dimes, Yours and Mine says:
i have mock EVERYDAY ah
Nickles and Dimes, Yours and Mine says:
omg, i can die
Nickles and Dimes, Yours and Mine says:
):
Nickles and Dimes, Yours and Mine says:
im uber sad
-ames` ; when i chose to give up. says:
dont be
-ames` ; when i chose to give up. says:
its good..
-ames` ; when i chose to give up. says:
it'll prepare you for your Os.
-ames` ; when i chose to give up. says:
really.
-ames` ; when i chose to give up. says:
hang in there okay babe?

ok :)
-

i have 5 tests this week
and im online.

i ought to be ashamed of myself

my mind's too jammed with stupid stuffs to concentrate
had trial piano exam today, the exam room is suffocating
after an hour i had a splitting headache, or maybe it's due to my sickness
dizzy spells):

2006-07-30T10:50:00.000+08:00

roseram made my day, being the ultimate sweetheart she is. Dont fret that you're turning bitchy my dear girl, you're the nicest person i know :) And i think im the one turning bitchy you know): i still love you, tell dom im your number one fan :D
i love you SA! Sarahh's my king(:
may has built 10000 hotels for me!
sam says 'there's always someone for everyone'
yes sam :) I dont have to say much cos you know you mean alot to me.
OSY! osy was supposed to piggyback me, that dumdum was too busy dancing though. She's my favourite friend even though favourite friend hasnt bought me my present. haha! i love you tomboy(:
i look so bad here): i look jaundiced. But it's ok, i love jan even if she didnt stay long enough to tell me my story. It's very important that she does ok? ok :)
terrie and i!(: ok, half of terrie and i. She's my dancing partner<3

im too pissed to blog, thus i'll let the pictures do the talking
(except no one is to mock at my flintstone hairstyle)
teehee

we never planned for this disaster
when will i let it go?

2006-07-28T21:49:00.000+08:00

ashley wouldnt trade you for the world; says:
heyy!!!
Nickles and Dimes, Yours and Mine says:
hey!
ashley wouldnt trade you for the world; says:
did you watch channel u?? HAHA.
Nickles and Dimes, Yours and Mine says:
YES
ashley wouldnt trade you for the world; says:
i like #2!!!!!!!
Nickles and Dimes, Yours and Mine says:
NUMBER 2 SO CUTE
Nickles and Dimes, Yours and Mine says:
YESYESYES
ashley wouldnt trade you for the world; says:
omgggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
Nickles and Dimes, Yours and Mine says:
but so short lorrrrr
ashley wouldnt trade you for the world; says:
DAMN CUTEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

ashley damn cute too! (bung cuter!) :D
-

towned today, left early had piano

im sorry if i dont reply msges, im antiphone! Sorry bestgayfriend!): And even if i reply i take a day to get it across. Im tired, felt so exhausted today i felt like i could faint. I'm sick again >:( i have stupid flu AGAIN. Im so weak. Ta for now, i miss you.

2006-07-27T21:05:00.000+08:00

kap was eventful
met loads of people
studied with claire david and stefff :)
the whole of kaptions was there

Are you aware of how much you complicate me
Are you aware your words suffocate me
And dont deny you're talking behind my back to your friends
And dont deny one day you'll need me

2006-07-26T20:24:00.000+08:00

speech day rehearsals are so redundant!
i cant believe i stayed back in school doing absolutely nothing
stupid, and i have NO FRIENDS to talk to cos everyone's taking colours award except yuting and i. Yuting got award for art(: and i have been so so so traumatised the entire time
it didnt help that my dumbdumb classmates keep laughing at me
HAHA, suckers, nicole went to tell the whole world i swear
i punched ravi on stage and it was damn funny
ok, he said i was weak, tsk

OH, DID I MENTION THAT ALL THE REST OF THE RECIPIENTS BROUGHT THEIR CHEM/PHY TBOOKS TO STUDY!!!! I shake leg for 2 hours please, while whining to elaine chua about being sad and lonely. haha

yuting and i were so bored we decided to tour the whole school on monday
we went to the top floor of echo block
and we climbed up the ladder thing X)
it was so fun! Except there was a spider and i screamed
and we found some secret hideout! How cool
talked abit to her, she's nice although she said she didnt like me in sec3 cos i didnt say hi to her. HAHA, stupid girl :D

OMGOMG, WADE ROBSON IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!
DANCES WITH SARAHH-
must go must go must go!
overdrive at esplanade!
pleasepleaseplease?
i hope only):

i love you wade robson (i sound like a looney fan.... looney tunes!)

i am extremely stressed out. I have to juggle stupid speech day waste time rehearsals and piano exam practices which i havent really done much. And i have tons of work to complete. Yeah, i feel like a rock. Cant wait for piano to be over cos then i have one less thing to worry about. I have something else to worry about but of course i cant say it here. So go guess.

I GET TO SHAKE STELLA NG'S HANDS LEH
joke please!

kap today! Pam act studious, scared me like shit):

can you help me find a way to carry on again?

2006-07-23T21:53:00.000+08:00

STEFSTEFSTEF!(:
i love you girl, dont feel bad cos im glad you told me
you're my dearest dear, im sorry for crying
hugs-

-

it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
i want you but im not giving in this time

apt.

i typed this long email but i decided to delete it
i dont know what to say cos there's so much i wanna say but i dont know how
i wish i had sarahh and yvonne's brains when it comes to these things
they're the smartest friends i have, in the love department
HAHA, i told sarahh i'd give her some of my book smart for her commen sense
:/

& bad karma really exists. I broke someone's heart today and i got mine broken later on
i was reading this suicide article, about teenagers committing suicide and it's so surreal to see them treat death so normally, like it's nothing, fearless, abstract. Even if i say i wanna kill myself i wouldnt have the guts cos you know, the stigma of death.

just a thought.

listening to thirdeyeblind. I like

i love you stick friend! dont be angry. teehee
& stupid ashley, i'll upload sarahh's pictures soooooonnnn
lovelove

2006-07-22T12:19:00.000+08:00

in the bus
my stick friend
wengyang thinks he's very handsome, think only :P
love rival looked extremely pretty in her dress!(:

-
love me butch :)

skipped physics mock exam yesterday, hope i dont get hell
bob was ok, didnt feel excted about going at first
i mean im supposed to be studying at home at this crucial period so i felt damn bad
they played my maroon5 song twice (i was sad)
ok, ignore me.
siewling sarahh rizza athiyah wengyang weicheng and i :D
i realise cindy has good taste, only those in the know will know what im talking about

AND OMG, SHAWN'S ONE OF THE 4 COORDINATERS OF BOB!!!! :DDDD
i was so excited to see him, except that wengyang and rizza went to call his name and i had to duck in order to avoid looking like a stalker
haha, but we msged at night :)
and he told me to say hi to him next time. teeheeeeeeeeeee

sarahh and ling went home right after
im so glad the fight didnt occur or else i wld have dragged atyh and ran away
stupid boys and fights >:(
we went to clementi macs to eat, i was dying of thirst
thanks friends

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATHIYAH ROSLI(:
tallie and old!
i love youuuuuuuuu

p.s something happened yesterday in the canteen. Cherylchoo and nicole keeps laughing at me now and nicole is a biased councillor. Love you bitches though, i shall show you guys the msg on monday so you can laugh more. PFFT

cheryl ; i dont see what she sees in you

she's my ultimate ego booster. HAHA

im going for gala dinner..... shit lah, no clothes to wear):

2006-07-20T14:58:00.000+08:00

i think skipping school is nice(:
two days in a roll, lets make it three
teehee, ok, my fever came back that's why
it's so on off :/

downloading songs now
i swear i'll study for physics and emaths today

i hate you so much
it doesnt make sense

2006-07-19T18:51:00.000+08:00

im very happy right now
reginald just msged me to tell me rugby boy wasnt at kap
so i didnt miss out on much(:

my fever kinda came back):

& i hope my dear janessa cheers up
she's always been there for me cos we msg everyday
actually, we msg alot of random things, HAHA
waste my bill only, but i like msging her
she bitches with me about annoying dumb people/juniors
she's freaking funny :DD
thanks love

-
my sexy phone is spoiled, daddy was nice to lend me his phone for the time being
i really REALLY hope it can be fixed
im so clumsy, sam and i figured out im only booksmart but commonsense stupid
argh X(
i want to be both!

2006-07-19T18:09:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEO YAKKA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUILING

huiling said she loves me, i love you too (:
-

i've spent 1hour reading a particular person's blog
which i happen to know the password of because she has lousy friends
ah well, i've been chanting what rizza told me the other day
that i have wonderful friends whom care so i shouldnt let [name]'s words get into my head
and im not mentioning her name cos it's repulsive but if she crosses me again i swear i'll get someone to bash her up. Im very into violence these days

'****** thinks she has [uglybung] to protect her she very big'
- welia :)

ok, i think this is the first time im bitching about someone on my blog
so it shall be the last time, i promise cos i keep my promises
i have nicer and more interesting things to talk about

i skipped school today cos i've got viral infection
and i have mc from school today and tomorrow
but i have to go school tmr cos there's phy prac
and i have to stop failing it, like now.

i cant wait to have long hair again :)
long hair suits me better, i think.
GROW GROW GROW!

my mum's so funny

mommy ; why genevieve's hair so short
mommy ; she acts like a guy and walks like one too
me ; really? i didnt notice
mommy ; yes, i think it's horrible
me ; see, that's why you should give me money to buy nicer clothes, later i become guy too
mommy ; you wish only

teehee, genevieve's not a boy or a bung
i think.

im happy to announce i've finished one whole paper on log and indices
im happy to announce i've done up half of 'the place's fault'
studying takes my mind of alot of things(:

im happier to announce i wont be putting up a pw/changing blogs
cos now i think i love candycarousels too much to change
maybe in the (near)future

We keep falling in love
What a beautiful disaster

-

I LOVE YOU AMELIA CHAN(:
happy birthday, i purposely kept your birthday to the end so you can see a whole chunk of my post for you.

1. im sorry if i always say i wanna go to ac when you tell me to go sa
2. im sorry if i havent been a good girlfriend cos i cant talk on the phone these days
3. im sorry if im a lousy friend sometimes, like when i keep talking about myself and making you sing for me
4. im sorry if i cant come out on friday to have a belated celebration for you
5. im sorry if i kept talking about - last time [ok, now also but lesser already]
6. im sorry if sometimes i take you for granted [just in case ;)]
7. im sorry i think your friend ***** is damn cute, you know i dont really mean it
8. im sorry for always making you treat me to gelare, but at least i paid for estelle

HAHA (:
i wished her at timely intervals today so she'll know i mean it when i say happy birthday
she better :D

i'll sing you a birthday song next time and give you your BRIGHT YELLOW levis shirt to make up for the 8 reasons on top

p.s hope that made you laugh cause i know you need to laugh these days.
heeeeeeeeeee

let's drink happy soda because we're gay(happy)

2006-07-17T15:32:00.000+08:00

my funky friends and i(:

im at ling's place and everyone is studying except me):
we were in town for a bit to buy FOOD
glorious food!
nevermind, im a closet mugger the moment i go home i'll start studying
beams-

and yes, only MINHUI knows my new url, teehee

had a good talk with candice last night till i forgot it was alr 1am

and i have speech day practice almost everyday, stupid >:(

2006-07-16T21:25:00.000+08:00

i dont know whether i'll be coming back here anymore
so yeah, so long and goodbye(:

until i decide to blog here, if you havent guessed it, i've got myself another place to rant

shyan ; pretty! :D thanks alot sweetheart, you too alright, i like your emo lyrics though, they're cool B)

jx ; old one! :D :D :D take care of yourself ok?(: I wanna watch lword please and thankyou!

ashley ; GIRL EXPERT! you're damn funny, teehee

maybe i'll put up my new link another day
it's dl so i can put a pw whenever i deem fit
YAY(:

you used to be everything, anything, special thing

2006-07-14T22:45:00.000+08:00

much X's and O's
& then a goodbye

2006-07-13T18:20:00.000+08:00

eyes closed -.-

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LIM JIAXI!(:
i love you flowergirl, you're 20! so old please, im only 16 [15 actually]
come back from rome asap! :D

-

today was a bad day, very bad. I feel like diana tang and chia always pick on me
but i know i sort of deserve it too, but it wasnt intentional at all
argh, tmr got eop test and i lost my book
oh, add a chinese test too

maybe i'll just skip school tmr

i still feel so insecure, despite all that everyone's been telling me
especially rose, haha, she's such a sweetheart (:
sometimes i wish i was prettier and smarter and gorgeous in and out
oh, a skinny pretty bitch.
but so does everyone else in the world

stayed back in school to acc ling
sarahh sam and i :)
it's been a while since i stayed back after school, wasting time
azlin called us the three clowns, siao ting tong

RUGBY BOY didnt go kap yesterday):
im angry, i dont wanna talk to anyone

2006-07-11T16:13:00.000+08:00

hi suckers, my friendster profile is not anonymous
it's damn fun please, my eyecandy viewed me and im elated :D
lo and behold they viewed me first, and you
i cant stand guy ego, really. HAHA, choosy's the most ego of them all
but not in that bad way ;)

i never knew lending fullscap paper to someone = liking them
stupid analogy, rizza go kill your friend can?

im at sam's house now, i have piano later):
my exam is on 3aug so i have to practice real hard
grade 8 leh! ok, no biggie
i think if i pass i'll just dump piano to one side
just like what i did to violin

im very distraught now, actually im not
i dont know what to believe now so whatever, you treat me like shit i still like you so much
sometimes i really cant stand myself, there's so many loopholes in your words, they spill like sand. It doesnt really matter what i care does it? You only think about yourself all the time. It's been so long and i dont know whether im the one who's reading too much into your actions or you blowing hot and cold. but whatever, this thing has gone on for so long, im so used to it as though it's water. I doubt you even remember the past, but i think remember every single thing you say. Im tired, not angry or sad or depressed if that's what you think.

speaking of which, i cut myself on my thighs last night
there's two long deep lines now
ARGH, oh it was by accident, REALLY

on the bright side, i suddenly remembered something else osy said

me ; does - hate me?
osy ; no lah, she doesnt
osy ; dont worry if anyone hate you i'll hate them too

:) She always brightens up my day
and everyone's quite worried about weicheng now, i hope he's alright

chem presentation was quite a success, i think
and history mock was shit cos i didnt study at all
i still have tons of hw to do and sam's doing her maths now :/
scary please

OH and delia[welia] nicole and i are the icecream buddies
we bought a whole tub of ben and jerrys to cheer ourselves up the other day
sec4 = no life):
at least wednesday is coming tmr! kap day kap day!(:

if i go crazy then will you still call me superman
if im alive then will you be there aholding my hands?

2006-07-10T22:20:00.000+08:00

<3 threesome!!

-

take the blame?

osy ; i cant do the amaths sums, im so dumb
me ; i cant do them either, i dont even do them, dont worry
osy ; but you dont need to do! You're a smart ass

HAHA, i love you osy(:
ponned physics to talk to her, we talked for 1hr!
it's been ages since i talked to her

we have physics mock every monday
i've just done broke roots lit paper
HAHA, it's so long overdue
i still owe the holiday one and laoshi is gonna yell at me tmr):

i owe so much homework i dont know where to start

just came back from pam's place

i really cant use the comp for long periods anymore
when i get to, i shall mail ros first thing :D

i love you?
maybe baby

2006-07-09T23:09:00.000+08:00

gertrude and i had a nice 2 hour talk at the bbq pit today(:
that girl's going to canada in a month):
i'll miss her please, i hope she comes for aad
and we gossiped about crescent, HAHA
like all those 2year ago stuffs, i found out some things
B)

ok, i swear if it wasnt for her i'd have spent the whole night being a loner
so thanks
will and his family are going newyork too
so we had a goodbye dinner for them today

STEF AND I GOT CONTACTS!!!!!(:
i still have a lil trouble putting them on but at least i got them right before she did
HAHA, sam didnt wanna get them

ok, i've been out the whole of today
comprehensive update another day
i have alot of things to do
eg. call people back

cos i dont wanna waste another moment
saying things we never meant to say

2006-07-07T21:25:00.000+08:00

Ros sent me this, it's damn cool
pick the brand which suits you the best to model
they're all american brands! :D

Payless - Can't even afford a relationship.

Hollister - You are single and whatever happens, happens.

Aeropostale - You like someone and they don't know it.

Abercrombie - you like someone and they know it.

Macy's - You like someone that doesn't like you back.

Victoria's Secret- You're in a relationship & love it :]

Hot Topic - Nothing is going your way these days and you're about to give up on love all together

Toys R US - you like someone in a lower grade

American Eagle - you like someone and they like you back but you are going out with someone

Walmart - you like someone but the fact that you're a teenage mutant ninja turtle would get in the way

I MODEL FOR ABERCROMBIE!(:
ok, that plus hot topic

hehh, Ros and jon arent coming over):
im so so so devastated cos i was looking forward to seeing them
especially ros! She's my favourite shopping partner
drats

-

towned today after eons
well. We ended school at 4 so what the hell
omg, i've become so nerdy i dont even go town anymore
we used to go everyday, HAHA

thursdays with stef PLUS sarahh was fun
except that sarahh refused to show off her hot legs in hot pants!
pam joined us for bk lunch

im so scared now, i hate hate hate cca):
i realise that it's quite impossible for me to pass and it's gonna look damn bad on my record. SUCKER):

im gonna cut my hair shorter soon
i need to do something horrendous to myself, and i dont indulge in self mutilation

im tired of guessing, if you still do please tell me
i want the old you back

-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENISE ONG
i know im supposed to call you, but im too lazy and you have to go sleep
X) so sad, training on your birthday, we'll go out soon
like when you have no training and i have no after school activites
I LOVE YOU MY DEAR GIRL, so so so much ;)
you're only 14, but you're taller and skinnier [hate you]
and i think you're quite mature. HAHA, it's a compliment, sort of(:
xxx

2006-07-05T21:42:00.000+08:00

this may never start, i'll tear us apart
can i be your enemy?
losing hell for you, waiting for you here
can i be your anything?

-

WELL, i just finished my english compo which is long overdue
haha and i finished up the higher chi paper
err, great. Everyone has done it except me
now im left with another chinese paper and many lit essays and history sbq which i didnt complete as i fell asleep in class

OHOHOH! im receiving an award for speech day! :)
for literature, YAY
and my parents are coming? i think, im trying to dissuade them
my mum somehow found the letter in my file
she's so... sneaky, lol.

THANK YOU BEST GAY FRIEND FOR THE 100PLUS SONGS YOU BURNT FOR ME!(:

i swear RUGGER is damn cute!
he's so much cuter than that guy sam think is hot!
i was so excited that i didnt do any work at kap in the end
unlike hardworking ling and stef. :/
& i saw the girl ***** likes, but not *****
bummer):

we have ss and lit mock exam on friday?
so when everyone's out enjoying half day we have to mug
NICE and our class has chem prac after that
which equals to one full day in school
hate sec4 life >:(
had to cancel on denise yesterday cos of english mock

i know i havent kept track of important birthdays
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY STEFFITYSTEF
no words can express how much you mean to me<3
hope you liked the forever21 shirt

denise 8thjuly [I DIDNT FORGET!]
jiaxi 11thjuly
yeo yakka 19th july
huiling 19th july
amelia chanCHANchan 19th july
athiyah tallie 22th july

yay(:

watched the germany italy match! and im so so tired
im thinking whether i should catch the franceportugal one
i actually like watching soccer
well, that plus all the hot soccer eyecandies [torres!]

2006-07-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

i tried and i tried but nothing came out

spent youth day studying! :D nerding times ahead!
ok, i went down to kap to meet stef claire and david
finished tuition work, hi nic!
met rose and dom(:
i absolutely miss the old kap days
david's paid 1000bucks a term to study?
i still cant get over that fact, haha
left early since i had tuition

sing a sad song just to turn it around<3

-

she's the blade and you're just paper

2006-07-02T22:25:00.000+08:00

i'd do anything to get things back to the way they were, really i would
but we both know it's not possible

-'s prettier now, ashley thinks im blind but i really think so
i makes me scared cos everything's so different
it's unnerving):

i've been msging so much i need to stop, like now. Janessa that dumbo and i have been msging for weeks, i think. HAHA, but we take damn long to reply, but at the end i'll still reply cos it's become a ritual, teehee. Talked to rose last night, hee. thanks dear for keeping me company, i love you manymany and i cant wait to see you!

get well soon girlfriend! you better go see a doctor tmr or i wont talk to you forever and ever. HUGS

and i need to talk to bee soon, have some things to ask her, it's quite freaky

ok, this post is so fragmented.

I WANNA WATCH SUPERMAN! Someone date me please, superman and supergirl :)

off to wait for sarina to call me, ciao bella!

2006-07-01T21:52:00.000+08:00

yesterday's feelings

ARGH, my zen spoiled so all my 1000plus songs are gone
i hate techygeeky stuffs i swear
so please please burn songs for me people! :)
i told reginald that i like emo rock punk songs like rizza
rizza and i have the same taste in music = rizza has good taste
HAHA

i wish i could proudly say i've studied hard, but i haven't
been stoning again today, im perpetually stoned i dont need weed

the twins went australia and got scrumptious cadbury back
thanks dears and nicole for offering me one bar :D

terence was introducing tequila shots and dentist chairs to me
and i still think getting drunk is dumb but it sounds tempting
very tempting, imagine not thinking for a night, bliss.

i cant think straight right now so i better stop blogging before i say something i regret
as i always do. Stop. messing. me. up. i. cant. take. this. i really. cant

haha, i already did ;)

2006-06-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

birthday girl!
bestfriends together till the end
lovelies
-

i got a new comp, and it's fabulous except all my files are gone, again and the net is damn slow

but im not complaining :)

whatever files i wanted to keep were gone long time ago anyway

town to celebrate darling cheryl's birthday today. I love you my dear girl and first ever partner in crescent<3 we surprised her with a cake and sang a birthday song damn loudly for her at yoshi :D
i simply simply love my friends
headed to ling's house with pam and we watched white chicks and played swing

it's funny cos i used to think you were nothing and now i think you're everything

2006-06-29T14:57:00.000+08:00

stayed home today
NO SCHOOL = NO NEED TO WAKE UP AT UNEARTHLY HOURS

nus is damn noisy please, there's some event going on and everyone's screaming so loud i can it from my dad's office. the window isnt soundproof, sadly to say

ok, this is damn embarassing, but i sprained my ankle so im handicapped now
>:(
fell down during pe thanks to dumb delia. HAHA
but it wasnt pain until i got home
i think i shouldnt have gone to kap, climbing up kap stairs made it worse, i swear
it's swollen, vivian has fat feet):

and stupid amelia bullies me and doesnt wanna go to see a doctor even though she's very sick AND more importantly i offered to pay 10bucks for her

oh yes, this week started out quite horribly
my phone got confiscated by dianatang and my father had to come down to see kartinie
on the plus side, kartinie was really nice and azlin caught me without my nametag but she didnt book me she just kept smirking at me i dont know why

the only thing im looking forward to is something one month later

& OMG! OLEVELS IN A FEW MONTHS
i neeeeeeeeeeeeed to stop going out everyday after school
and stop talking on the phone, yes CHICKADEE?

i still have no idea which school i wanna go):

zac efron is absolutely gorgeous
i dont have disney channel anymore
off to watch high school musical on utube
liztay told me to watch it there :D

i <3 torres!

2006-06-24T17:44:00.000+08:00

2006-06-24T16:45:00.000+08:00

on second thought, i feel as light as feather

slide along side makes me wanna dance like mad!
it makes me 5% happier each time i listen to it
i shall listen to it 20 times and then i'll be 100% happy
B)

eating pineapple pies makes me happy too!
i hope nicole brings pineapple pies for tuition

candice has been telling me nice things, haha
i've been rather pessimistic, i know

i really dont know what to do
because some days i feel so down and next thing i know, one msg can bring a smile to my face

everyone has their someone, will you be mine?
cheesy love is for suckers not sucksters ;)

2006-06-24T16:03:00.000+08:00

at the holland bus stop
blurred, but loved :)

-

tell me im the the one making this all up in my head

im at my dad's office again
stayed home today to please my mum
since i got home at 11 last night
curfew's 10, damn.

i think i wasted this whole holiday away
finished amaths and emaths
that's about it

was dying at home yesterday until SWEETSTEF pulled me out
met her at bk at arnd 6ish
and her friends, claire and david. I think ;)
went fos to look for her brown shirt, but it's gone
aww, bought java chip and sat down for awhile
omg, it was the first food i had yesterday
i was famished and as athiyah says
hungry girls are angry girls

HAHA

went to pam's place to meet the rest
pam sam wengyang ling rizza weicheng and weichang
bbq but i wasnt really hungry
i was rather moody yesterday, slammed the phone down on weichang
He was being crap like his brother and i was already extremely annoyed so i hung up on him
sorry :) i dont think i've ever hung up on someone before):

AND THROUGHOUT THE BBQ MR WEICHENG KEPT FLICKING AND HITTING ME
i swear he's annoying. HAHAHA, ok lah, but he made me laugh
wengyang was like 'i never hit you or bully you before why you dont wanna call me handsome?'
omg, guys are stupid, throw rocks at them :P
ling's a sweetie, she gave me a kiss!
we're eloping soon and leaving sarahh behind
teehee

school's starting, i really feel stoned about it
im so stoned nowadays
spent the whole of last night stoning, that's why i didnt reply anyone's msg

rizza says i always leave secret emo msges in my post
so i shall end without any emo msges
let me kiss you one last time, goodnight

p.s i miss my comp!! My mum refuses to buy me a new comp
>:(

2006-06-22T17:19:00.000+08:00

pam's place, studying or rather tried doing so

thanks andrea, you're lovely(:

sarahh updated our private blog!
yes, i just realised :D

we're playing pretend

arent we?

i dont know what to say because there isnt much to say
or rather whatever i have to say will have further repercussions

2006-06-21T16:54:00.000+08:00

hi friends
im at my dad's office now
my stupid comp died, it makes beeping sounds when i try to on it
hongkong was great and only because it took my mind of alot of things
i had no phone so i had absolutely no contact with anyone during that one week
which was quite blissful, im not sociable
haha, unless you count the msges/calls i got from yvonne denise sam and amelia using my dad's phone.

ling's birhtday party last night was great fun
it was ling's birthday combines with weicheng's housewarming
signature park! Got ling a leather bag, hope you liked it dear!

sarahh sam siewling athiyah wengyang reginald pam weicheng rizza!(:

i feel so guilty, omg, now i feel even more guilty

oh yes, im sick and i have to eat weird looking pills

just saw andrea's mail sent on may 12th
her life sucks more than mine, no i dont mean it in a bad way
but i have no idea how to help her now
<3

and guess what, yours was the first msg i received when i opened my phone

i wont be blogging for a period of time
i talk crap half the time i blog anyway :D
goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend
you have been the one for me

p.s. i love sugarcult!

2006-06-12T12:40:00.000+08:00

THANKS CANDICE LEE<3
im so glad i met you before i left, i love you pretty mummy(:

i played cupid last night, so fun being a matchmaker!
i seem to be able to fix other people's problems but not my own
i really dont know what to feel now, sarina says i should leave things behind and have fun
:/

and osy makes me smile :)))))
love you girl, bimbo things for you!!

you, take care please i'll talk to you when i come back

sam tan! remember to keep me updated on LATEST happenings!

weicheng mr. siao santa claus who talks alot of crap!
sorry i didnt reply your msg, HAHA
it was too crap
lol, rizza and wengyang too!

that's all, bye bitches

2006-06-11T22:02:00.000+08:00

im off for hongkong tmr
my flight's at 130!
candice and chap are coming to send me off, i think(:
YAY, chap's going LA, please buy me hollister and abercrombie tops. thanks
sarahh's going malaysia
nicole's going bangkok
athiyah's IN bangkok
ling's coming back on the same day as me

so yes, 12th to 19th
one week.

i dont know whether i'll be bringing my phone, seeing that my mum's so pissed at me alr
aiya, msg my dad's no. that's if you know me very well
i'll try to get presents, try.
bestie wants a leather bag, im not richie rich :)
natania says there's typhoon over there!
IM SO SCARED, what if i die?
my parents have no sympathy at all, i've been whining to them abt the horrid weather
and they say im being a wimp. roar
smartboy got a toy for me from hongkong
HAHA, dammit. i told her i didnt want a tigger but she still got me a toy
she really thinks im whimsical and CHILDISH):

amelia chan! take care of yourself yes? im quite worried about you still you know. and why are you having rugby trainings!! stupid pig, arent you supposed to be RESTING? tsk, take care girlfriend!

kaptions! we'll go celebrate ling's birthday when i get back ok! sentosa outing on may 22 too! :)

take care loves!

i wish i could drive away to the sunset back to the day that we first met

2006-06-10T21:15:00.000+08:00

yvonne woke me up at 930 today
tennis was err, alright
HAHA, it was freaking hot and i kept whining
after 30mins i gave up and sat in the shade
and left yvonne playing by herself
teehee
made it up to her by treating her sakae
we wanted marche but it's under renovation):
met rizza and wc to say hi
and ended up being bullied by them
i forgot to go down to terrie's flea store
sent the two boys down instead. HAHA
thanks lah, pizzadol and the bitch
yvonne bought me my player shirt
<3

tuition with nic was filled with fun and laughter
more of laughter though

rachiiepokk just sent me the funniest thing ever
HAHA, cheers me up man

p.s. i love you, forever and today :)

2006-06-09T21:36:00.000+08:00

please speak slowly
my heart is learning
teach me heartache
stop this burning now

-

ling pam and i had nice hearttoheart at kap
i mean, they talked and i listened since my life's pretty trouble free
YAY

ok, maybe not.
i realised that i miss the way we were

stupid, no mood to blog
byebye

2006-06-08T20:36:00.000+08:00

sarahh's my suckSTER :)
private joke!

-

i dont like you anymore
thank god for small favours
being so rude doesnt earn you bonus points you know

ok, im pretty much fine now
I LOVE YOU SARINA CHNG :)
thanks for talking to me last night, and telling me your story
im the third person to know!!!

the yesterday episode just reminded me of -
i wonder what would have happened if i was a bit more mature at that time
but then again, as sarina said, it would have ended up like this in the end anyway

town again, im really tired
it's not that the kaptions are boring or anything
but seeing everyone everyday gets tiring and becomes a routine
IM HANGING OUT WITH BESTFRIEND THIS SATURDAY!
cant wait, i miss that girl like crazy. I know havent been a good bestfriend, we hardly see each other :/ but i love you alright, love you like fuck ;)

leaving for hongkong on monday
im quite :/ about it. ONE WEEK LEH
i mean, other than shopping i have to eat dimsum everyday
cos my grandfather's a dimsum guy, along with most hongkong people
sam's mum calls me a hongky!!! HAHA, dammit
sam's always telling her mum all my retarded incidents
so i think her mum thinks im some weirdo. teehee

oh, and i'll be spending every single minute with my family
I WISH CHERYL WAI WOULD COME ALONG AGAIN!
i miss her, yes. i seem to be missing alot of people
we had so much fun in hk that time and i had someone to take the rides at ocean park with me :D i love the cable car! it's so terribly romantic
hk's disneyland is totally overrated

tennis with sam pam and benedict was cancelled today
due to the fact that neither pam nor i brought our rackets
benedict had no balls, HAHA
and it was raining

I JUST TIDIED MY WARDROBE
and i threw away loads of clothes
THAT MEANS I NEED TO SHOP SOON
right pam! :)

basically, i miss everyone i've been neglecting
oh and i met fionne today!
and she recognises me in my short hair, very good
I MISS SOFTBALL, HAHAHA
nut and i were talking abt it the other day
so funny! i cant believe i used to run and bat and throw
i cant believe SHE used to go for trainings. lol

ok, long entry after eons
bye babes and hunks

2006-06-07T21:34:00.000+08:00

hate my short hair >:(

-

KARMA SUCKS

im quite frustrated over something now
just when i thought things could actually be alright
im not sad or anything, well, maybe a teeny weeny bit
but im more of, distraught
best not to like anyone yes?

went out with girlfriend today, we walked around alot
she made me wait for her while she went on a trying clothes spree
wahlao, guy clothes are damn ex, im never becoming a bung
HAHA, i learnt to fold clothes the sajc style
haha, damn fun! her friends taught me :)

went home, bathe and went to pam's house for like half an hour
sam had something to tell me, im the nicest friend please

I JUST THRASHED WENGYANG IN MINDSWEEPER!
HAHAHA, he cant own me now ;)

HAPPY SODA MAKES ME HAPPY!

i really really believe in bad fate and karma now
twice it's happened, no, it isnt her fault

straight?

2006-06-05T21:28:00.000+08:00

:)

i know you well enough to know you never loved me

i dont feel like blogging much this days
haha, hi friends!

2006-06-03T22:33:00.000+08:00

see, i knew no would tag anymore):
im a sad girl, only grace's lovely enough to tag
HAHA, much<3

i just got home, omg i miss amanda so much
and she wasnt down the rink today
she said 'i wanna concentrate on o's this year so im not competing'
HAHA i was so bored without her

nicole's house today
we had a great time(:
I LOVE PINEAPPLE PIES!

im supposed to call reginald now and join in the conference
byebye, i miss you

2006-06-02T21:42:00.000+08:00

new blogskin
i swear i love grace yeo :)

and everyone, the tag link's at the side
please continue tagging
even if i barely reply and it's quite a chore to have to click on something else
especially something so minute
THANKS!

mahjong and blackjack sessions was fun!
nicole cherylchoo liling yakka sam pam
<3
i spent 1hour last night writing a long letter for yakka :)

i didnt win much, but i didnt lose either
lucky star :D

i need to stop going out
i need to start on the huge pile of work i have

2006-06-01T21:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CANDICE LEE JING YI!
omg, youre 18! YOU CAN DRIVE SOON<3
i love you my dear mumsy, i hope you had a fantabulous birthday(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CINDY CHAN!
my chio de ;)

my poor darling sarahh's grounded):
i miss her so so much
she loves me more than organic chem and anyone else except wade robson
HAHAHA

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sarahh sam and i got stalked by teachers in town yesterday
it was freakish and they acted like paparazzis
and ms ho told s2 today she recognised sam and i from the video? OMFG
went pam's place to meet the rest
wengyang rizza pam sam athiyah weicheng marcus
irfan came over after that
we just hung around and did alot of stupid things
i mean, the guys did stupid things and i couldnt stop laughing
teehee, except when they smoked >:(
marcus thought pam and i were tgt?
LIKE, OMG, that can never ever happen!
poser tried to carry me, muscle man
HAHA
aiya, alot of things lah, im too lazy to list them down

went pam's place again today
her parents arent in town, lucky pig
wengyang left for maldives
take care muscle man!

reggie made me promise him i'll turn straight
and he'll quit smoking if i do so
HAHA, he made me do the stupid hang swearing thing :P
thanks for sending me out!
i tried racing him, but apparently he does 930mins for 2.4
i did 16.50. LOL
i gave up halfway, running isnt my thing ;)

pizzadol piggybacked me down the stairs, and weicheng piggybacked sam
AND DROPPED SAM AGAINST THE SOFA
omg, she almost cried :O

cheryl's house tomorrow!<3

im very disturbed now, i told cindy tang about it
and she went to tell liling
PFFT

2006-05-30T17:47:00.000+08:00

i woke up at 8 this morning
and promptly went back to sleep
until sam called me half an hour later
by the time we got ready it was 9
and pft started at 9, wahlao can die):
so we cabbed to school
and i jumped 190 for standing broad jump!
HAHAHA, im so proud

cheryl and nic came to school to meet us
we waited for athiyah and went to holland
cheryl nic liling and i went to gelare for waffles, yum
HELLO MY DEAR GIRLFRIEND, TODAY WAS WAFFLE DAY!(:

i rushed home to bathe change and get money
and cabbed to holland to pick sam and atyh up and we went to acsi
apparently the ib open house wasnt very well publicised
so we slacked at the steps with the guys for hours
stoning and being silly :)
some stupid guy tried to steal panadol's vaunt tickets
reggie and wengyang kept saying that their school got no bungs for me
HAHA :D

sam and i went to queensway for abit
bought cup corn!
and on the way home i saw this girl who bore an uncanny resemblance to serping
except she was wearing queensway uniform and serping's in a jc
LOL

i've been spending too much money on food and cab fare
cabbed like 4times today):

OH! xixi my china scholar friend is damn cute!
seriously, her friendster msg is damn funny
and i didnt know scholars are so hip ;)
'vivian kai xin, xixi kai xin'
OMG, SO SWEET(:

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1. i feel like a slut
2. i found out that you really did love her, maybe it wasnt mine to start with

i found out alot of other things, most of them maybes
but it's a definitive gut feeling, you know, how sometimes you get that growing dread in your belly that spells of bitter aftertaste?

'hello bitch, you ruined my life'

i guess that's what both of us would like to say to each other

the thing i like about going out is that being silly and wasting time away gives me something else to ponder over other than every single fucked up issue there is

p.s. i miss my long hair

2006-05-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

just read someone's blog
i wont say who, but it's so heartwrenching
i think im gonna cry

i feel so insignificant

im the extreme mood now

2006-05-29T21:01:00.000+08:00

towned today

athiyah pam sam rizza wy reggie wc and marcus
the usual bunch plus marcus lah :)
that VERY rich guy

town was dreary, as usual
we ended up chilling at wheelock starbucks
away from the hustle and bustle

thankyou all for keeping me company(:
it beats thinking all day at home

HAHA, i just read reggie's blog
both of us arent going for vaunt
LOL, we have equally strict parents

'i'll be your superman'
:)

2006-05-28T12:49:00.000+08:00

I tried to ask you to your face
But no words came out
I put on my hood and walked away
That doesn't mean I don't like you
-

just came home
library with samsy
we go there like every sunday
she left for westmall, i had to come back cos im going to watch da vinci tonight

i borrowed 6 books! :)

new links up, im linking so many people >:(
maybe i should go diaryland
get my blog password protected, then i wont have to link
i hate linking people, HAHA i know, stupid

im so tired, no tennis today
but im still tired

clique outing tmr?
i dont know, i dont feel like doing anything
especially not go town

i feel like shit actually, i've been neglecting alot of people
hello osy, i miss you so damn much lah):
and i know im supposed to call yvonne back, but i dont feel like talking to anyone

i've been indulging in doritos and watching fd2 and nanny mcphee
what a great way to spend my holiday

2006-05-27T11:21:00.000+08:00

i sense a whiff of liberation coming
that's the whole point of cutting my hair
you know, a big change
i really think my hair's a little too short
dammit, i really dont wanna be a bung):
oh! LESBIANS HAVE ISSUES TOO!
hor poser? ;)

i shall not go out today
im a good girl and im dead broke from my lifestye
eg. going out every single day including sundays
HAHA, i must really start tackling the huge pile of homework

nicole's sick):
poor girl, i hope she gets well soon!
I LOVE YOU

and the world is too small
the person i like used to like the person sam likes's ex girlfriend
lol, go figure

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replies

stef ; THURSDAYS WITH STEF<3

ames ; i think youre the one who needs someone to sing for you now :) BUT I CANT SING!): i'll buy you straws lah you sillydumdum 2bucks a pack! REMEMBER TO FOLD ONE SPECIAL STRAW STAR FOR ME! teehee

ashley ; i'll talk to you online yeah? where have you been babe! i never ever see you online):

ames ; if it makes you happy, i'll accompany you every single day sweet thing (: although i cant give constructive advices):

mr. storage ; PRACTICE WHAT YOU PREACH! hahaha, you dont be so sad too! i mean, we're one big happy family [like barney the dinosaur] hehh. Thanks for the msg last night! It cheered me up abit lah, stupid poser ;)

chickadee ; EXCUSE ME, YOU CANT COOK EITHER): we need a personal chef. HAHA, AND I DONT IGNORE YOU WHEN WE TALK ON THE PHONE! hello. I just keep quiet cos... im softspoken :D

qinya ; YESYES, all of us can go do cip together! OMG, SO FUN! :) we'll wreak havoc, hahaha!

rizza ; THANKS SEXY :D sorry lah, i forgot to mention you, dont angry alr, lovelove ;)

ashley ; i replied you alr..... sillybilly :)

neh neh ; who are you huh? are you one of the annoying boys? HAHA, i bet so.

-

you know and i know that the winds have changed
and it'll never be the same again

2006-05-26T22:11:00.000+08:00

TAKING NEOPRINTS WITH GUYS IS SO RETARDED
haha, they do the weirdest thing pls ;)

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
well, only technically speaking since we have school everyday for 2 weeks

i cut my hair really short
like some chinadoll ok, ok, not so bad
HAHA, imma bung! :D
LOL, why wont anyone believe me, teehee
i've outgrown my bimbo roots and gone on to bunghood
ok, im being lame :/

today was quite good
i mean, there were little things here and there
but it was still good
met them in town at arnd 2

sarahh siewling rizza wengyang reginald weicheng and irfan
(:

saw loads of people and finally saw natania after many blue moons
didnt talk much though):

sarahh and wc left and athiyah came along
watched xmen, DAMN SAD OK!):
poser kept crying. HAHAHA

i hope rizza finds his phone soon!

pam and sam came to find us after the show
met amelia and we walkwalked abit
she bought me orangina [YAY]
cheerup love, i'll be behind you 100% whatever you decide to do

took kaptions neoprints, damn funny!(:

went home in the pouring rain
braved the thunderstorm for you :)
yeah, you wish

-

And will you tell all your friends
You've got your gun to my head

My finger on the trigger
Or me face down, down across your floor

2006-05-25T11:33:00.000+08:00

you'll be fine, you dont need me

woke up at 1030 today and almost screamed when i saw the time
i thought there was school today you see
only when i looked out the window did i finally realise it's a holiday(:

spent the whole of last night listening to my zen and thinking
i was dead tired, so i finally went to sleep at 3
i thank my lucky stars i have all my lovelies to msg me and call me etc.
im quite blessed you know

i know what everyone's trying to tell me
it's not like i haven't tried every waking second

oh how my heart bleeds for you

bestfriend's working today
and i bet you sam and pam havent gotten up yet
plus i havent done my english file

looking at kaptions pictures now :)
so cute! i love every single person
the 11 of us, it's uncanny how we've only known each other for a few months only
stc + acsi + cgs = happy family!

ok, go pam's blog to see the pictures

i think i have the eminem syndrome
i've been blasting sing for the moment and without me on the speakers over and over again
claudie used to have the eminem syndrome!
she was so in love with him her whole wall was filled with his posters
and i remember she spent like, hundreds on some stupid cup he apparently used
OH! She thought he was the hottest guy alive
-.-

come to think of it, i havent seen her for eons
even though she lives a few blocks down the road
[so does cherylwai!!]

ok, eminem rocks
speaking of which, he's quite some cute ;)

singapore is too small
we've been going to town every single day
there's no place to go except that or holland or kap [haha]
sam and i cant decide on a specific place to go

boring with a capital B
there's nothing to look forward to

with you, it's heaven on earth
without you, all hell breaks loose

how apt

2006-05-24T22:19:00.000+08:00

I need answers for what all the waiting i've done

im really really sad again
i thought i was better, but at the end of the day, it all boils down to
this

2006-05-24T18:55:00.000+08:00

i love my friends!
-

today was a good day!
school was B again
stop copying my lingo pam!(:

ljs with sarahh sam and pam
left shortly to meet jan
im so efficient! i helped her choose her present ok, im the bestest convex(:
she was trying to find POSER guy shirts
we were at NUM and she made me ask the salesguy for a bigger size

me; err, do you have a bigger size?
him; i'll help you find.... gives me and jan to weird look- are you getting the shirt for yourselves or your friend? THE GIRL'S SECTION IS ON THE OTHER SIDE!

omg, i almost died laughing
we made up some lame excuse that it was a present for our guy friend
hehe! SEE MISS ACT POPULAR, WEAR SKIRTS AND DRESSES LAH, be normal like me! :)

went topshop and i made her wait for me while i tried on clothes
didnt get anything though, i need a new wardrobe
sarahh that idiot got so many shirts for her birthday!
we're trying to turn her girly ;)

starbucks and i drank java chip!!
it's so nice, but i prefer bananas, of course i do
they're yellow!

left to meet sam on 7
she got down at holland and just in time loserchan called
she was in 75 slightly behind 7 so being a nice girlfriend, i got down to wait for her
HAHAHA, oh, something funny happened AGAIN

i got on the bus and there were no seats arnd
loserchan got up and offered me her seat
but i refused to sit cos than she'd have to stand and i was getting down soon
we argued for abit before both of us decided to stand. LOL
everyone in the bus kept giving us weird looks i swear
and somemore she started taking pictures in the middle of the bus
AND SHOUTED 'BYE LOSERLEUNG' WHEN I GOT OFF
i think everyone thought she was demented
teehee, but it was great talking even though it was only for awhile
her life is so complicated!
if i were in her shoes i think i'd have fainted

my troubles seem so minute compared to hers

candice's sad too, she just msged me
im here for you to rant my dear<3
aiya, i think the older you get the more confusing life is
i want to remain young!):

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OH YES, i failed cca
fantabulous, I CAN JUST DIE
hello, i need to do 30hrs of cip to pass cca
goodbye dsa, a failed cca mark leaves a bad record in your leaving testimonial!):
i hope ravi helps me speak to heng, maybe she'll consider giving me my softball points
HAHA, fat hope
qinya atikah sarahh and i failed, superb

i hate the leaps system

there's this guy in my condo
sam and i call him siaosiao [inside joke!]
he's so hot! hotter than hot himself ;)
he's from the singapore american school
and he opened the door for me!
did i ever say that im a sucker for people who open doors for me?
yes, im quite easily hooked, fish! :D
oh, the word's chivalry(:

OH! AND I SAW SHAWNY YESTERDAY!
hahaha, but like, who cares!
he's so yesterday
he still wears quicksilver. HAHAHA

panadol says that girls who are crked have very low self esteem
:/

and we have tons of holiday homework to do
great, we have to go back to school for the first two weeks too!
HOLIDAY MY ASS

i need to go file my english file!
even pam and sam have done so, shows how late i am

2006-05-23T21:30:00.000+08:00

i can listen to my immortal over and over again
(:

celebrated sa's birthday at seoul garden today!
I HATE SEOUL GARDEN, omg, i cant cook at all!
i cant even crack an egg, poser helped me crack
HAHAHA, and best still, i sat with sam who's another useless person
teehee, dont kill me chickadee!

sarahh sam pam ling athiyah wengyang rizza weicheng!

left early for piano, my exams are nearing!
im quite scared cos i've been neglecting piano alot

i'll try to smile, cos that's the best i can do for you

there's no control
she just lets her emotions go

2006-05-22T20:13:00.000+08:00

replies!

lee ; hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii :)

jan ; stop procrastinating ass, haha! i know jc sucks, but please start studying and stop ponning school. OR ELSE IM NOT GOING SHOPPING WITH YOU, hehe :)

ashley ; gladful? grateful lah ;)

SARAHH ; hello, stop being rude to your love [me] your giving me your pfs anyway. :D I LOVE YOU BIRTHDAY GIRL! im smart! admit it my dear, lol

shyan ; YOU!(: im a brainbo! you bimbo!

stef; hello, 11pm alr, what's there to write abt. HAHA, thanks for the hug today. i love you daddy<3

shyan ; TSK, stef is biased!!

ames; I HOPE YOUR KNEE GETS BETTER SOON!): you can teach me how to play rugby when you get better, im a sporty girl :) thanks love for singing jie ko last night, campus superstar ah! i'll be your translater lah, i higher chinese one ;) you cheered me up alot(:

rose* ; OMG, ROSEMARY CHAN! i miss you so much! You still havent updated me on the latest my dear ram, haha! you and chichi say the same things! thanks(: QAM LOVES RAM!

rizza ; hello my 2am friend :) thanks alot! and yes, i need to lose weight, YOU DONT

SARAHH ; you also! ok lah, youre bung hunted. HAHAHA

ashley ; thanks!!(: im feeling much better, i'll talk to you soon and update you on you-know-what!

2006-05-22T16:07:00.000+08:00

this picture is damn funny!
classic(:
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAHH!
i love you my dear, my secret affair, my personal army
my bodyguard, my door-opener
:)
i know im supposed to wish you at regular intervals today
i'll msg you later, i hate msging you know, so troublesome ;)
BUT FOR YOU, I'LL DO ANYTHING
HAHAHAHA, awww, im so sweet
andand since it's your birthday im smiling cos you told me to
aiya, i wrote you a testimonial, so you can go read the rest!
<333

tuesday seoul garden/sarahh's celebration!(:

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im very sad, hence im home early
ok lah, town's boring with a capital B!
it really isnt my fault lessons end at 1230
and we have ample time to waste away

you're so predictable

i shall go watch red eye now
this week isnt looking up

2006-05-21T14:26:00.000+08:00

i won once! :D
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anw, i've thought through things
and i think i really should talk to you abt it
i shall go psyche myself up right now

im not going to msg you
cos somehow i know you'll not reply

i know you so well, no?

ok, im talking nonsense, again
sam tan is taking ages to eat lunch

i need a walkwalk to clear my mind
who wants to walk with me?
(:

off to reply andrea's email
i've been talking to old friends, like friends that i havent talked to in many blue moons
it's a great feeling, catching up and stuffs
everyone's doing good and it's great to hear from them
you know, you know right?
(:

sometimes i think i care too much
too much

2006-05-21T13:02:00.000+08:00

LOSERCHAN!
cheerup girlfriend
i love you can? CAN :D
see, i love you so you better cheer up
omg, im treating you to gelare somemore
OMG, sucker, you better smile right now(:
i'll go out with you soon and make you laugh

AND WAHLAO, WHY MINDSWEEPER NEVER LOAD!):

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my daddy bought me a creative zen(:
it's my early birthday present
HAHA, how early pls, 7 mths
i was deciding between creative and apple
but ipod got not radio, and im a sucker for radio

tennis today, but it rained):
i need to lose weight soon, i've been eating so much
eg. countrymanna last night
going to the library with samsy later
we're going to meet kaptions too
i think, provided they're still in town

and my msn cannot play games, stupid
amelia and i need cheering up and the comp refuses to cooperate):

sarahhoyuenling's entry is so funny!
go see www.pointblank-.blogspot.com
that... idiot! Make me sound like some bung hunter [HAHAHA]

and stupid concave saw ***** yesterday at MI funfair
sucks ok, i should have went
AND SHE TOLD HER FRIENDS ABT MY SECRET CRUSH
i shy ok

great, mindsweeper finally loaded, but loserchan's going to win
AS USUAL, HAHA
i suck at playing games
yes, i knew it, she has 12 flags but i only have 6

dont care, later play bejewelled i better win ;)

2006-05-20T15:43:00.000+08:00

If i could reach the stars
I'd give them all to you
Then you'd love me, love me, love me like you used to do

today's an emotional day

2006-05-20T12:52:00.000+08:00

MI/NJ FUNFAIR TODAY
i almost forgot ok, until rizza msged me
stupid, but im not going
sorry): sorry ghariza. i know im supposed to go down to nj today
sigh

i need a quick fix, anything to get my mind off stuffs
andrea said i should talk abt it, not just trash talk
but it's hard, im not the type who starts conversation
especially not this kind of talk
and you know it

on a lighter note, im off to watch chick flicks
im extremely pissed right now cos im not going for funfair [no *****]
AND my mp3 died on me
AND i need an ipod desperately
AND i have tuition later which sucks
AND nicole just msged me to tell me miss lee is angry with our results
AND i have no clothes to wear

AND my mum keeps complaining abt my results
and insists that i have to study during the holidays and must start preparing for olvls
WTH, she's never satisfied with anything i do
she wants me to get straight As

ok, im angry with myself actually
and with you, which isnt a surprise is it?

& i want so much more than this

green tea calms my soul, or so i think

2006-05-19T19:50:00.000+08:00

RIZZA WEICHENG WENGYANG REGINALD SAM PAM NICOLE SARINA RACHEL AND EVERYONE ELSE

cheer up sweethearts<3
to all the acsi concampers : we'll tide through this together and rizza, we'll scrimp and save!):
im so sad now, i feel so sad for them
sucks to be in concamp, but we'll still be kaptions all the way!
sarina ; i know how you feel, hang in there, love is for fools like us. i'll call you back soon
sam and pam ; both of you were badmooding today so i didnt go talk to you cos i know you'd both brush me aside, but still, i care and love you guys

my l1r5's 18
im satisfied i guess, i know my amaths could have done much better
and sciences were all badly done, first time lit wasnt a1
but still, im happy
my parents dont have to see anyone :)
and im very happy that my compo got 26/30
my love story wasnt so bad after all, heh
although i failed compre, WAHLAO
so... b4 for english?

i'll take things in my own stride(:

yvonne was applying for dsa so i just got her to put my name down for fun
HAHA, although i alr passed the required mark [15pts]
applied for ac sa and nj
didnt know what to put down, i want to go trinity!
it seems like great fun, and i like aussie prom
SO GLAM! but my parents would never allow
hello ashley, be grateful youre going to trinity :D

ravi ; vivian you must get a distinction for english
me ; i failed compre! starts whining-
ravi ; alot of people did badly, it's ok
ravi ; you're smart and you can do it
[i think he was trying to be encouraging]
ravi ; i heard from some people that you are clever
me ; WHO!
ravi ; someone lah, doesnt matter who

im glad ravi's my english teacher(:

hung out with yvonne and denise after school
i shant elaborate, but it was good
i just ate off denise's softshellcrab
HAHA, i owe her a treat now, damn

yvonne's buying me my havainas!
singapore doesnt sell the canaryyellow one!):
yellow's my favourite colour ok, pigs

i love my bestfriend even if she got 13 points and kept whining to me
stupid girl >:(
she's hcjc material lah, cannot take it

last week of school, i must spend it wisely

how about that?
teehee, the ac lingo is getting to me

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you spoke of empty words
please dont bring me down this time

2006-05-18T21:14:00.000+08:00

i realise i havent been replying tags
hehh, sorrrrryyyy! im lazy
i'll get down to it soon

starbucks and BK with my lovely kaptions today

got amaths emaths and CH back today
i feel quite pleased actually, except im really sad abt amaths
from top in class to a lousy b4
miss lee is so gonna kill me, and call me a lazy pig):
but life's good. i got 81 for CH!
I LOVE SOCIAL STUDIES ALL OF A SUDDEN :D
i really must thank jan cos she made me study education the night before and it came out
a1 for emaths too(:

more papers tmr, my stupid bestfriend has gotten straight distinctions for every paper
wahlao sucker

i just replied several more letters

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i've decided not to reply tags
i cant find all those that are gone

thanks for tagging though my homies :D
i'll start replying soon

it's alright girlfriend, i forgive you ;)

2006-05-17T18:48:00.000+08:00

it's not good to sleep at unearthly hours
eg. 2am
i just realised, my eyes are like droopy
im tired as hell

some things have been bothering me
and i finally see that the root of the problem's that im tired
not physically but rather, im mentally exhausted
i feel as though im passing each day pretending
acting happy, acting like im having fun
yes, i love my friends, we laugh, we joke, we have fun
but at the end of the day, there's still a big part missing
there's still this unexplainable, inexplicit dreariness that threatens to engulf me
it's this sense of deadness and immobility that results in enhaustion
i used to have this big trust thing going on
i could trust people you know, utterly place my trust in them
but i cant even tell anyone this now
i feed everyone a different story which ultimately joins tgt to form the whole picture
like a jigsaw puzzle
but really, at the end of the day, i just cant bring myself to trust anymore
i cant bring myself to laugh without feeling shortchanged
i cant even fathom what i feel anymore

i feel like my life's missing this big important thing
but i dont know what and that troubles me alot

it's bittersweet
having fun, but not really having fun
missing people but not really missing them
loving you and not really loving you
liking you but i can only have you as a friend

things like that.... you get the drift

i dont really talk abt this to others plainly because i dont like to dampen others' moods
it's depressing, this emptiness and absolute lonliness
and i doubt anyone wants to listen anyway

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i reckon i need a dose of beauty sleep
happypills would be nice too

and i feel like i can just sit there with her silently
and she'll still know what im trying to say
haha --- favourite friend(:
ok, random

i failed higher chi, which doesnt come as a surprise
so whatever, 1.5marks to pass!!):
i need a mental preparation for tomorrow
cos i have a bad feeling my other papers will turn out the same sad way
i didnt work hard, i was complacent
so i guess there's no one to blame but myself

sometimes i feel like im in love with love itself

i resolve to sleep early cos life sucks and taking drugs isnt the solution at all